Parenting after a Loss

3 Years Ago Today

My precious daughter grew her angel wings... I still remember it like it was yesterday. So much has changed in those 3 years. I look back and sometimes it feels like that was another life, a totally different me lost that little girl. Losing Grace changed me, to the very core of who I am. 

I still can't help but wonder "what if?" and dream about what life would be like if she were still here. I frequently think about the fact that I should have a 2 1/2 year old little girl running around, and being a big sister to Ben. My faith helps me to know that the end of life on earth is not the end. I know I will get to be with her one day, and that she is with my mom watching over us. 

Mama loves you, Gracie girl. You hug your Ajji tight until I am there to hold you myself.  

  

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 Lilypie - (KAFM)

Re: 3 Years Ago Today

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    BFP#2 7/18/12; A/S 10/26/12 It's a Girl! EDD 3/29/13
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  • I feel that way looking back too. It feels like I lived 10 years in the span of 3. It's so bizarre.

    Big ((HUGS)) lady and a special prayer for your sweet Gracie Angel

     

  • Thinking of you and sweet Gracie today. HUGS!

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    BFP 07/27/2012 - Beta 1 - 169 @ 11 DPO, Beta 2 - 419 @ 13 DPO, DD Born on 04/04/2013.


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    DS1 born 2/26/07 * DS2 born 10/18/10 * M/C 8/5/12 * DS3 born 6/21/13

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    Birth - 7 lbs 7oz 
    2 Months - 10 lbs 9 oz, 15th percentile
    4 Months - 10 lbs 1 oz, FFT 0 percentile
    5 Months - 12 lbs 10 oz, FFT 0 percentile
    6.5 Months 14 lbs 7 oz, 5th percentile
    9 Months - 18 lbs 4 oz, 25th percentile
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    **BFP #2 5/28/12 Blighted Ovum m/c 6/15/12**
    **BFP #3 7/12/12 EDD 3/21/13 - Madelyn Ruth born 3/5/13**
    BFP #4 4/2/14 - EDD 12/15/14 **Here we go!**

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    TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)

    BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d

    BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13

    BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks

  • Lots of hugs.  Thinking of you and your LO.  It is amazing how our loss shapes who we are in the future.

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    BFP #1 2/1/12, mmc 3/1/12 @ 8 weeks, D&C 3/2/12 
    LAP/Hysteroscopy 4/26/12 removed uterine septum and stage 1 endo BFP #2 7/23/12, induced at 37w1d for IUGR on 3/17/13, St. Patrick's Day!
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  • Big hugs to you!!!
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    BFP #1 10-11-10 ectopic discovered 10-22-10, 10-23-10 methotrexate & emergency surgery, lost right tube BFP #2 12-1-10 Found to be tissue dropped from salingectomy or missed heterotopic pregnancy from BFP #1 BFP #3 1-30-11 DS arrived on due date 10-10-11 BFP #4 Surprise 9-3-12 EDD 5-9-13 DS2 arrived 5-5-13


  • Big HUGS and prayers for your sweet Gracie.

    BFP #1 – 4/14/12 – Ectopic Pregnancy – MTX 5/11/12

    BFP #2 – 9/2/12 – Our sweet rainbow DD born 5/23/13

    BFP#3 – 1/5/14 – EDD 9/12/14 – natural m/c 2/16/14

  • ((hugs)) to you today.
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    First BFP! 9/5/11- M/C 9wk5 1st U/S, no HB.
    Forever loved, little bug.

    Second BFP: 1/13/12. 2/13/12: Blighted Ovum diagnosis. Chromosomal testing showing complete tetraploidy. We'll miss you, little monkey and wish we could have known you. Two babies never to be in our arms, but always in our hearts.

    Third BFP: 5/4/12 EDD: 1/12/2013. Our rainbow baby, W, born 1/16/13 a healthy little boy!!! We love you honeybadger and are so so blessed to have brought you home!

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  • Thank you all SO much for your hugs, kind words and T&P! I didn't expect this to hit me so hard this year... I think my mom's death (not to mention her upcoming birthday next week) has me more emotional, more raw, and grief has caught me off guard. Funny how that happens...

    While I could never be happy about what happened with Grace, I am so grateful for you all, for this community of women who share a similar pain, and who have shaped lives and love out of loss. Thank you all for being here for me, you amazing mamas! (((HUGS))) right back 'atcha!

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     Lilypie - (KAFM)

  • I'm so sorry, hugs for you

    "Grow old and be bold and know that you are the magic of my song" -Stephen Leonard

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    BFP#4: Baby W is born at 41w1d on 7/18/11

    BFP# 5: EDD 3/8/13, Baby C arrived 3-4-13.  "March forth, little girl" :)

    BFP# 6: EDD 8/25/14, Please complete our family, bebe <3 </font>

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  • idk how i missed this... but big belated hugs!!!!!!!!
    ~Formerly~AngnShaun~

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  • Sending you BIG HUGS!!!
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    BFP #1 - 1/15/12, EDD 9/21/12, Missed M/C - 2/10/12 - I miss you Sapphire!

    BFP #2 - 7/1/12 - Met my lucky charm Alexandra on 3-16-13!!!


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  • Sorry I'm so late in this but I wanted to offer some hugs.
    married 09.06.08
    BFP #1 - m/c on 12.22.09 @ 8w3d
    BFP #2 - d&c on 07.22.10 @11w1d
    BFP #3 - DS born on 06.22.11 @41w3d!
    BFP #4 - Due 04.24.13
  • :(  HUGS!

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    BFP #2 02.21.12 I EDD 10.29.12 I DS born 11.06.12

    Surprise BFP #3 07.27.13 I EDD 04.02.14 I Stick baby stick!
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