I love my daughter and absolutely want nothing but the best for her but I can't help but cry. Since she was born on May 9th we have had several different issues with her. She did not take to formula - we started with Gerber Good Start Gentle to Enfamil Prosobee to Enfamil Nutramigen and now she is on Similac Alimentum. The only one that seems to be helping is the Alimentum. She was born 7lbs 8oz and currently weighs 8lbs 9.5oz. We went to a Pediatric Gastroenterologist who changed our the portions of water to formula powder. We have to put 2 full scoops of powder to 3 and a half oz of water. She showed no improvement so they asked us to add rice cereal to see if she would gain weight on this. Our next doctor we have to go to is a Pediatric Eye Specialist because she is not following the toy in front of her so they want to see if there is anything wrong with her eyes. She does however look at you and will turn her head towards you when you leave the room or move somewhere near her.
Today our pediatrician who I trust and love not only because he was mine growing up called and told us we need to make an appointment for a Pediatric Neurologist. He wants us to make the appointment because she only gained about 1lb, is not able to follow and her head is smaller then it should be even though it is portioned with her body.
Needless to say I am extremely upset and I don't know how much more I can handle. I partially feel like this is my fault. Some of my background is I had a seizure in 2009 and have been on medication ever since. When my DH and I found out we were pregnant it was too late for me to have the option of stopping the medication or still taking it. So I am not even sure how I should be feeling at this point. The only thing I can say is that my life would not be the same without her and I wouldn't change anything for the world. I am just hoping and saying my prayers that at least if something is wrong we are catching it now and not later on.