I started bleeding last night and I just started cramping along with the bleeding. I went to the doctor today one week before my fist checkup, and while there was sac, it as only developed to 5 weeks, not 8. It's possible The dates are wrong. But what's more likely: the dates are wrong and I just happened to be bleeding and cramping; or the baby stopped developing three weeks ago.
I'm not going to keep hoping that the dates are wrong and keep hoping that the blood test I take on Friday will tell me my baby's alive.
I didn't know it was going to hurt like this. I didn't realize how much I already was in love with this baby. We had names picked out, and I already bought some clothes. I feel empty and hopeless. I don't know how to feel better. I already struggle with depression.