I keep thinking things are resolved, and then...here we go again.
History: I planned to leave or cut hours after DD was born in Dec. After much thought, I ended up negotiating a 4 day workweek with one day from home, through the end of the year, at which time I'll be leaving. Finally made a decision--whoo hoo! Since then, we have been in a super long and difficult nanny search (posted late last week about that). We've all been sick with three different bugs. We've had raccoons in our roof. We're moving, and renovating the "new" house extensively. Everything is a mess and the kids have had all sorts of fill-in nannies in and out and I've been making arrangements day by day. I have HOURS into looking for sitters. DS isn't getting potty trained and the poor kids ask, "who's coming to take care of us today?" I keep thinking I should have just quit this spring.
Now that I committed to staying through the year, plans at work were made around this. My volunteers and donors (I'm in fundraising) have all been told of the transition plans. Staying gives me a nice schedule, income of course, and the opportunity to wrap things up really smoothly and in an organized way. I would like to tough it out, but...
is it just time for me to go? Superstitiously, I kind of wonder if God/the universe is sending any kind of message here with how difficult this has all been? DH has been very supportive all along of me working but now wants me to quit. Says it's just not worth the extra income (I'm mostly working for insurance and my retirement deposits, after child care) until the end of the year to manage this nanny situation and go through this crazy move and renovations all while I am still working. I don't really know how it will be having the kids in the new house with a nanny while renovations are going on--we're doing an addition and making several changes. Is it just too much??
Financially we could do it. I don't know what I think anymore. Between the constant nanny stress, the house decisions, and work I'm totally confused. So I'm asking the internet--hah