*original pregnancy and m/c mentioned*
sorry ladies, but I am just feeling so down and out today, really need to vent. I've just had it with this whole process.
It's like some sort of sick to joke to get pregnant first try, make it one week short of second tri and now have so much difficulty getting pregnant. I definitely recognize ppl have it much worse than me, but I'm having a pity party today! I just tried so hard to relax this month and not get so stressed then only 7 days after freakin O I get bright red flow!! whyyyy?! WTH body?! then it stops and I just have dark brown spotting. What is even happening?! ugh I just can't understand not having a normal cycle almost 6 months later. It's infuriating. I just have no hope of getting pregnant in my mind as long as my cycles stay all wonky- long follicular phase, short luteal phase and then very light AF. ughhhhh. Have decided to call my dr. I guess but I'm doubtful anything will happen. I mentioned low progesterone in the past and he just said "oh everyone has those symptoms". At least now I have charts to show him.
Thanks for letting me vent, I just feel so defeated. I feel like I'm taking it harder lately seeing so many people come and go. I remember reading a study about lower risk of m/c if you get pregnant within 6 months of your m/c and thinking *no problem* wow how naive was I? :( Again, I know ppl have it worse and I'm sorry if I sound like a brat, I'm just at my breaking point today.
((hugs)) to those who need them!