Our beautiful son was born this past Tuesday. I was in labor 66 hours, with nearly 3 hrs of coached pushing. About 24 hrs of med-free labor, then a decision to go with an epidural, which didn't work as it should. Lots of other unpleasant stuff along the way. In the end, he was born with forceps because they had to get him out quickly as his heart rate was dropping. There was a knot in his umbilical cord, and it was wrapped twice around his neck. I had a 4th degree tear. Oh, and I developed kidney stones the day after delivery, which have yet to pass completely.
Some of you other ladies who have had difficult deliveries, please talk a little bit about your experiences as well as your mental and physical recovery. This is my third day home and I'm having a hard time dealing. My mother and husband are wonderful--managing household tasks and encouraging me--so it's not due to lack of support.
I just don't know what to do with this broken body of mine or how to manage it so it will do what it should and care for my baby. (I know: follow my doctor's instructions. But they don't tell me how to live through this.) I want to hold and cuddle and feed my son, but there are so many things I haven't the strength for yet. I want to let go of the hurt, but it won't go away.