I'm really starting to think STTN is what did it. It's been a problem since about 3 months old and I've tried everything. Thats about when he started consistently STTN.
I'm so close to just throwing in the towel even though the thought I never nursing again makes me want to cry. I absolutely love breastfeeding but J would rather just have a bottle. I have to sort of force him to nurse. This is going to sound sooooo dramatic but I feel like I'm mourning a death or something. I go through all the same stages. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. Then I start all over again. Currently, I'm hiding in the pumping room trying not to cry.
Sometimes I feel like if I just let go maybe I'll be able to move on? Does this all sound insane?
My H doesn't get it.