TTC After a Loss

I need a change ... Introduction

A little introduction about myself.

I'm 39 years old with 2 boys from a previous marriage 19 and 14. My husband and I have been married for 2 years he has no children. I found out I was pregnant in May and just found out Monday at 10 weeks 4 days the baby no longer had a heartbeat. I had a Dnc on tues. My husband is a dr and works a lot and can't be here with me physically through all this. We have a few hours every evening to vent to each other. These forums have been a life saver for me mentally.

I have some medical condition that causes lots of muscle problems and take medication daily to help with that. The drs think I may have the early stages of multiple sclerosis. When I became pregnant all my symptoms went away completely which was wonderful because I couldn't take the meds. Soon after my Dnc the symptoms came back and I had to start on my meds.

I woke up this morning feeling different. I had literally shut myself up in the house blinds closed and laid on the couch all week but I feel it's time to get up and start thinking positive. That's why I came to this forum. We plan to start TTC again as soon as I'm able to. I realized my body is still going through changes but I just need for my mental health to look at the positive in things.

So here I am on this new board introducing myself to start a new chapter in my life. I know I'm not completely over my loss yet but I really NEED to look at the future. I'm sorry if this is a long post.
DS #1 9-27-93
MMC 10-97 @ 14 weeks
DS #2 12-22-98

TTC Since Jan 2012
BFP 5-13-13 EDD 1-17-14 MC 6-24-13 Girl Trisomy 18
BFP 9-14-13 EDD 5-27-14 MC 9-20-13
BFP 10-15-13 EDD 6-27-14 MC 11-19-13 Girl Trisomy 16
RE Diagnosis: Everything is normal.  Just Bad Luck because of age.
Medicated Cycle 1  Gonal F, Trigger, TI, Progesterone  BFN
Medicated Cycle 2 Gonal F, Trigger, TI, Progesterone BFP but MC
Medicated Cycle 3 Gonal F, Trigger, TI, Progesterone  BFFN
IVF #1 ICSI and PDG ER 6-12-14  19R 18M 18F, 10 made it to 5day PGD testing.  3 normal 2 girls and a boy.  FET of 2 9-11
BFFP 9-15-14 Beta #1 9-19-14 8dp5dt 102 Beta #2 12dp5dt 497

Everyone welcome

Re: I need a change ... Introduction

  • I'm very sorry for your loss. Welcome to the forum, and I agree, the boards have been a lifesaver for me too. Nice to know that other ladies are going through similar emotions. ((Hugs))
    Me: 33 H: 37 
    2/13: BFP #1 - Loss 3/13
    11/13: 0.8 AMH and MFI - Referred to RE for IVF
    1/14: IVF w/ ICSI #1 9R/7M/7F = BFN
    4/14: IVF w/ ICSI #2 11R/7M/0F = Cancelled
    6/14: IVF w/ ICSI #3 12R/10M/8F = BFN
    7/14: Second Opinion Consults + More Testing = New RE!
    8/14: Estrogen Priming
    9/14: IVF w/ ICSI #4 12R/10M/6F = BFN :(
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope your recovery from the DnC is speedy and look forward to getting to know you. Welcome.
    DH (44) and I (40 Lordy, lordy!) started TTC with hysteroscopy to remove embedded Paraguard IUD (of which a chunk remains) 10/10.
    BFP 9/30/11. EDD 6/22/12. Natural MC at 10 weeks (measured 9w3d) 11/26/11.
    And she will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night

    6/13 starting testing with RE. HSG and B/W normal, SA count ok, motility 30%.
    Clomid/IUI cycle 9/13: BFP! EDD 5/28/14 It's a BOY!!
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  • I am so sorry for your loss.  Welcome, and I hope you enjoy a short and sweet stay here once you are off the bench! 

    TTC since October 2012

    BFP#1 1/11/13, EDD 9/19/13, M/C at 9wk6dy 

    BFP#2 11/12/13, DS born 7/28/14!

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    I am so sorry for your loss.  Welcome, and I hope you enjoy a short and sweet stay here once you are off the bench! 

    all of this. welcome!

    ETA: I hope your recovery is uneventful and quick from your procedure.

    married my best friend 10/04/08, TTC since July 2012
    BFP#1 Thanksgiving 11/22/12, mo-mo twins(one sac), traditional EDD 7/27/13, EDD due to risk 6/15/13
    mmc Angel 2/7/13 @ 15w3d, mmc Aubrey 2/13/13 @ 16w2d, D&E 2/16/13

    BFP#2 9/21/13, EDD 6/2/14, DD born 5/17/14 

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  • SA1112SA1112
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    I'm very sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board.

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    BFP #1 3.16.12. mmc 5.7.12 at 11 weeks ~Avery Cameron~

    BFP #2 12.12.12. mmc 1.22.13 at 10 weeks ~Theodore Michael~

    D&C #2 Chromosome analysis results: Translocation Trisomy 14

    My RPL Testing: Homozygous MTHFR, normal karyotype

    DH's karyotype results: Robertsonian Translocation 13:14

    BFP #3 9.10.13 mc at 4 weeks~Our little May Flower~ 

    BFP #4 10.13.13- Our Rainbow Baby, a little girl, arrived June 25, 2014! 

                                                                              


     

     

     

     

  • I'm sorry for your loss. It sounds like you are making great steeds in your recovery. While you will never be over your loss the feeling of doom and complete and utter sorrow will pass. Then there are times weeks and months from now when it will be hard again. Just take care of yourself and do the best you can.
    I'm so happy to hear your positive change. I'm sure it's like a breath of fresh clean air. I'm glad you've found us and joined our elite sad club. Welcome.

     

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board - I agree, it has been a lifesaver for me, too. The women on here are amazing.

    You should also check out the TTCAL blog for some good information if you haven't already: http://www.ttcalblog.blogspot.com/

    Hope your stay is short & sweet.

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    BFP with #1 (twins!) 11/18/2011 - missed m/c at 8weeks3days; d&c 1/19/2012; myomectomy to remove 18cm+,10cm & 5cm fibroids 4/2012; TTC again 7/2012; BFP #2 (twins) 11/13/2012; missed m/c at 7weeks;
    BFP #3: baby girl born 3/5/2014

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  • Ax2Ax2
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    I'm very sorry for your loss. Glad you're here and hope you don't have to stay long. Smile
    BFP #1 - 17/12/11, mc 01/01/12... I miss you, my little Blueberry.


    BFP #2 - 27/02/12, Arrived 06/11/12... We love you Archer!


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    I'm very sorry for your loss. Welcome to the forum, and I agree, the boards have been a lifesaver for me too. Nice to know that other ladies are going through similar emotions. ((Hugs))

     

    This! *HUGS*


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  • Welcome, I'm sorry for your loss. It is good to think of the future, it helps with the healing I think.



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    Started TTC Feb 2013, BFP #1 3/4/13 EDD 11/10/13. MMC 4/9/13 D&C 4/22/13.
    BFP #2 7/17/13, EDD 3/29/14 ended in a CP on 7/22/13.
    BFP#3 8/19/13 EDD 5/3/14 Nerdling was born 4/29/14, welcome little one!
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and for all you are going through, but welcome to the board.  (((HUGS)))

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    BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13 
    MMC discovered at 10 weeks (baby measured 9 weeks) D&C on 3/16/13 
    BFP #2  CP on 3/31/14
    BFP #3  8/11/14  EDD 4/22/14
  • I am so sorry for your loss.  Wishing you a speedy physical recovery.  (((hugs)))
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  • I'm sorry for your loss.  Welcome to the board, and I hope things start getting easier for you.
    BFP 11/24/2012  MMC 1/21/2013 - BFP 3/29/2013  MC 4/8/2013 - BFP 4/25/2013 MC 5/6/2013 - 5/17/2013 Diagnosed with LPD - BFP 8/24/13  MC 9/6/2013
    BFP: 12/19/13  - Beta 1@11dpo: 26.8 - Beta 6@23dpo: 3,672
    Our Rainbow Son Born August 26, 2014
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  • I'm sorry for your loss. I had a mmc at 10w 6d, I know how that feels. Welcome to the board; you'll find a lot of support here!
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board.

    You mentioned you're not completely over your loss yet. Honestly I don't think I'll ever be "over" my loss. I'll carry it with me forever. I'll think of my baby forever. And I think that's okay. Do we have to move on with our lives? Yes. But I don't think that means you should have to feel like you have to get over it. 

    Best of luck to you. 

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    BFP #1   8.29.12   EDD 5.8.13   MC 10.9.12   GusGus
    BFP #2   7.12.13   EDD 3.24.14   MC 7.26.13   Muggle
    RE Consult 8.22.13 for RPL testing
    Diagnosed with Factor V Leiden and MTHFR 
    IUI #1 10.11.13 w/gonal-f and ovidrel   BFP #3 & CP 10.25.13   Dot
    IUI #2 12.9.13 w/gonal-f and ovidrel   BFP #4 12.18.13   EDD 9.1.14
    Our rainbow, Eleanor Margaret born 8.27.14
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  • I am sorry for your loss. Welcome!
                               
                  
                 BFP#1  9/5/12, MMC, MC confirmed 10/9/12,          
                D&C 12/12/12
    BFP#2 7/30/13, EDD 4/12/14, DS born 4/14/14
                                                                             
                                                                            
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  • I'm very sorry for your loss, but glad to hear that you are making strides in moving forward!  I hope your stay here is a short one, and that you find the support that you need.
    BFP#1 4/1/2013 - EDD 11/28/2013 - M/C 4/19/2013
    BFP#2 8/24/2013 - DS Born 4/20/2014

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  • I am so sorry for your loss. I feel that we will never truly get over the loss of a LO, and it is only you who can decide that you are ready to try again. Wishing you a short and sweet time here on TCAL.

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  • KMW08KMW08
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    I'm sorry for your loss. This board is wonderful. It's usually quieter on the weekends, so don't be fooled by that since you're introing on a Friday.

    I'm 10days out from my DnC, and I'd still lock myself up if I could. Your feelings are normal, take it one day at a time, it gets a little better each day. Today makes 3days where I've not had a complete full on ugly cry. I still get teary eyed and enough that it runs down my face, but the cries are getting shorter and less dramatic.

    Take the time for yourself and its perfectly ok to grieve, however that may be.

    :::hugs:::

    Married June 2008 ~ I'm 29 and DH 28 ~ TTC#1 Since 1/1/12

    BFP#1 2/10/12 MC#1 3/03/12 natural @ 4-6wks

    BFP#2 6/30/12 MC#2 8/07/12 blighted ovum @ 9wks d&c 8/9/12

    BFP#3 5/09/13 MC#3 6/14/13 no hb @ 9wks d&c 6/19/13

    BFP#4 3/18/14 - Please be a rainbow !!!! EDD 11/28/14 !! IT'S A BOY !!

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  • image lindsayhilleary:

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board.

    You mentioned you're not completely over your loss yet. Honestly I don't think I'll ever be "over" my loss. I'll carry it with me forever. I'll think of my baby forever. And I think that's okay. Do we have to move on with our lives? Yes. But I don't think that means you should have to feel like you have to get over it. 

    Best of luck to you. 

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    Sorry for your loss OP, welcome to the board.

  • I'm so sorry for your loss. This board is a great place to give and receive support. I hope your stay here is short! Welcome to the board. I know what you mean about looking for the poaitives. They can be hard to find in situations like these, but there's usually something to look forward to. 

    TTC since November 2012 

    * BFP#1 3/31/13 * MMC 5/7/13 at 9 weeks * D&C 5/15/13 * 

    TTC our rainbow

    Began seeing a RE 8/14

    Me (26): DX: PCOS DH (31): All normal

     Sept 2014: Clomid 50 mg + Trigger + TI = cancelled, no follie growth, Provera

    Oct 2014: Clomid 100 mg + Trigger + IUI = ???


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  • Thanks everyone. No offense but I hate having to be on this board but y'all have all made me feel better.
    DS #1 9-27-93
    MMC 10-97 @ 14 weeks
    DS #2 12-22-98

    TTC Since Jan 2012
    BFP 5-13-13 EDD 1-17-14 MC 6-24-13 Girl Trisomy 18
    BFP 9-14-13 EDD 5-27-14 MC 9-20-13
    BFP 10-15-13 EDD 6-27-14 MC 11-19-13 Girl Trisomy 16
    RE Diagnosis: Everything is normal.  Just Bad Luck because of age.
    Medicated Cycle 1  Gonal F, Trigger, TI, Progesterone  BFN
    Medicated Cycle 2 Gonal F, Trigger, TI, Progesterone BFP but MC
    Medicated Cycle 3 Gonal F, Trigger, TI, Progesterone  BFFN
    IVF #1 ICSI and PDG ER 6-12-14  19R 18M 18F, 10 made it to 5day PGD testing.  3 normal 2 girls and a boy.  FET of 2 9-11
    BFFP 9-15-14 Beta #1 9-19-14 8dp5dt 102 Beta #2 12dp5dt 497

    Everyone welcome

  • I am so sorry for your loss, but welcome to the board. This is a great place to vent, find support, and tons of information, so I hope the board will help you in the healing process. It's great that you are turning over a new leaf and thinking positively. I wish you lots of luck. ((Hugs))
    BFP#1 8/3/12~EDD 4/1/13~Natural M/C 9/1/12-9w6d 
    BFP#2 5/30/13~EDD 2/3/14~Confirmed CP 5/31/13
    7/12/13 Hysteroscopy & Lap Lysis of Adhesions
    1st Cycle on Clomid Aug '13: BFP#3 8/24/13~EDD 5/3/14
    Hoping Third Time's a Charm!!- IT'S A GIRL!!!! 
    KAYLIE MARIE IS HERE! BORN 5/4/14

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  • Im so sorry for your loss, i hope your stay is short. Good for you to try and be positive that can be a very hard thing to do after a loss, keep up the good work. (((hugs)))
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