So, my mother was induced into a coma earlier this morning. I got the call from my aunt. I am 3000 miles away from ANY of my family and I bought a ticket to go see them last week. I leave tomorrow.. for my mom's birthday coming up (25th).
She fell a few days ago, she cannot handle falls, she is 400lbs. She has been depressed as long as I could remember. She is the reason why I lost my weight, I went from 350lbs to 167lbs... because she begged me not to be like her. Well last night she was delirious and yelled for my aunt. When my aunt went to check on her she was off the bed on the floor. She apparently rolled off. Well my aunt asked her if she was okay and she mumbled yes, she was fine. Then my aunt, who is a nurse anyways, said she looked different.. she wasn't acting right so she called 911 again. They brought her in an apparently she has been only getting 50% oxygen to her brain, she has been diagnosed with COPD now and they said her white blood count was 25,000. She was vomiting and confused and not breathing well on her own at all.. so they put her in a coma.. They now say she probably won't make it.
My mother has never seen my son.. it was supposed to be a special time, tomorrow she was supposed to see him. It was going to be a great birthday week, I had things all planned out for both of us and for her to spend time with her FIRST grandchild. I had to wait this long to see her because of financial issues concerning my house and my car catching on fire. I just cannot believe this is happening right now.. I am dreading and replaying horrible thoughts in my mind that she may never get to see him.
Baby related.. Connor won't stop crying in his sleep today. I have been trying to control my feelings for his sake.. but I cannot all the way. I burst out in tears randomly.. I don't know where else to post this. Thank you for listening.