Full of pregnant women listening to then talk about all the joys is just plain cruel. A number of them, 7 months along, can't wait to get them out. I would give anything to still have Daniel inside me. So now I'm sitting alone in the hallway crying waiting for the nurse to call me. It's just not fair, what did I do to deserve this? Why don't I get to have my precious son? Why do I have to have this hole in my heart, this piece of me missing?