My DD has already been through so much in her short 4 weeks. 3 days after she was born, we were hospitalized for jaundice and she received intensive phototherapy for 2 days and 2 additional days at home with a bili blanket. In the hospital, we had to FF to get her fluids up and BF didn't work out after that. She has some tummy troubles with the formula that we are trying to isolate. Then, she ended up with thrush that we have been treating with oral medicine for over a week now. She has plugged tear ducts and now her left eye is red and swollen and we have to start antibiotic drops to treat it.
I'm just feeling like a terrible mom today. I know it's unreasonable, but I can't help but feel like I should have been able to protect her from all of these things. I know things could be much worse, but I just feel so bad for her when I'm squirting medicine in her mouth and now in her eye at the same time. :(
BFP #1 – 4/14/12 – EDD 12/16/12 - ectopic pregnancy – MTX 5/11/12
BFP #2 – 9/2/12 – EDD 5/17/13 - our sweet rainbow DD born 5/23/13
BFP#3 – 1/5/14 – EDD 9/12/14 – natural m/c 2/16/14
BFP #4 - 8/11/14 - EDD 4/24/15 - please stay, little BOY!