I've been having a really hard time adjusting to having LO. I had a lot of anxiety during my pregnancy so I don't know if this is hormone PPA-related of if I'm just terrible with adjusting to change. Things have been worse for me recently because LO, for the last 3 weeks, has started fighting every bottle, every nap, and crying inconsolably for no apparent reason. I'm home alone with her all day and I'm at my wit's end.
I confided in DH last night that I miss my old life and that sometimes I wish I could just run away (no plans on doing that, just expressing my feelings). I've mentioned this to him a few times now (over the span of 4 months). Last night after I told him this he got really mad. He's barely talked to me today and when I asked him why he said he was really upset by what I told him last night. He said he was sick of me telling him these things and that I should just be grateful for what I have and be happy with LO. That made me feel 10 times worse of course because I already feel bad enough that I'm not totally happy with my post-baby life.
He said "what would people on the boards say if you said I came home once a week saying I wasn't happy and wanted a divorce" (I've never even mentioned a divorce, but apparently this is what he's hearing). So ladies have at it. Is he justified in being mad at me? Am I ungrateful? Or are these normal feelings? Or is this abnormal 4 months in? Now in addition to all the other stresses I feel like my marriage is going down the dumper now too.