Went to my ultrasound today. No heartbeat, baby measured 8 weeks (I am 9w1d). I have a D&C scheduled for tomorrow morning.
This is the third loss I have had around this time period (the others were both 10-11 weeks). I am numb, angry, and confused. The other two losses were less of a shock because I had spotting and other symptoms that had me worried. This time I had every pregnancy symptom in the book and not even a drop of spotting. I was just blindsided.
We aren't sure if we are going to TTC again. We have two healthy kids. I am so incredibly tired of loss. I am also worried about my own anxiety if I were to get pregnant again.
So I don't know where we go from here. Please keep me in your thoughts tomorrow morning. I had a horrible experience with my first D&C but my OB here thinks that an at-home miscarriage would be traumatic because of the size of the sac.
I just want to curl up and wake up when it's over
Kate ~ 7/3/09 *** Connor ~ 11/11/10
3 losses: 2007, 2009, 2013
Currently TTC #3