Hi all - i just wanted to ask your thoughts on my (probably highly irrational) fears. I have been committed to doing a non-medicated VBAC ever since discovering I was pregnant. I have been seeing a very supportive midwife practice and they assure me I'm a good candidate from all the information available. I have enlisted the help of a doula who herself had a c-section and VBAC and she's also my yoga teacher. So everything sounds good right? But now that I'm getting closer I'm starting to panic. (Anxiety is a known issue for me). Because my hospital is 20 mins from my house I'm starting to freak out about the whole "labor at home as long as possible" thing. That's what I want to do, but I dont' know if I'm going to be able to remain relaxed through my anxiety. Part of me really just wants to be able to go to a hospital as soon as i feel anything so I'm close in case of emergency. If you do have a rupture is it likely to happen early in labor or right at the end? Or is it just as likely to happen right now at 28 weeks as it is at 40 weeks?
So I know that this line of thinking is not going to be helpful when trying to work my way through labor. I can already feel myself quietly freaking out. So far the best advice I've heard is from a friend who suggested drinking 2 glasses of wine once you are pretty sure you're in active labor just to calm yourself down... pretty much the same thing i do before getting on an airplane :) Does anyone else have any advice on keeping calm during the home labor part?
thanks! and i hope i haven't spread my anxiety to anyone else!