This might deserve an AW title. I don't know. It's really bugging me though, and I'm hoping others have advice for how to deal.
I heard the heartbeat on Tuesday, and subsequently spent Tuesday night lying in bed, unable to sleep, stressing about whether I'll be a good mother (seriously).
I've always wanted to have children, but I'm not sure how well I will handle infancy, when they require all of my attention and more. I've always been very attached to my personal time and space, and I go nutso stir-crazy when I don't get it.
I know I will fare better when they're 2 and beyond, but it's the 18-24 months leading up to it that's terrifying me.
How to handle it?