So, we just got home from our 41 week appointment. And, as it turns out, baby boy is still "pretty high"---cervix closed and posterior, but soft.
The doctor wants to induce on Sunday evening. I know that, for most people, this would be really exciting--as it means that I will FINALLY get to meet my healthy baby boy. But, I'm not excited. I'm so upset and disappointed. I feel like my body didn't do what it was supposed to do. I just wish I could have a little more time.
The doctor wanted to also let us know that there is a reasonable likelihood of c-section...as there is very little progress that has been made....and inductions tend to be more successful where there's a bit of dilation and the baby is engaged.
I just feel so cranky and upset.....like something is wrong with me....I just wanted a chance to try to birth him through labor.