Wednesday ended up not being such a great a day, graduation was fine, dinner was good got home late went to the bathroom and there was blood. My period had come, no cramps, no warning, no nothing, 13 dpiui. I sobbed, DH and I held each other that night and grieved that we are not going to be parents. If you recall this was to be our last attempt.Thursday morning I woke up about 3 to pee and I decided to test in case there was just some random bleeding, it was negative. today it is truly a period, sadly since my lining was a 12 I expect a freakin flood.
My ttc career is over. I just can't believe after all that I wasn't pregnant I had so many follicles popping out I was doubled over...and nothing. I am devastated. DH agreed to try for a year, this is end of year 2, so its over, who everthought I wouldn't get pregnant? How is that evern possible, 24 months and no BFP? Especially when everything is ok, except i don't O regularly, so when I did O under the RE why didn't it work? Sorry I am just at loss, I am angry, I blame myself, I am confused, heartbroken, blame the RE, but in the end I need to begin to move on and recognize that I will be childless.
I wish each and everyone of the absolute best, i don't know how often I will pop in, I need some grieving time. Hugs and baby dust to you all!
My Ovulation Chart
Me: 41 DH: 46. We are TTC our 1st, started July '11,
3 cycles clomid with Ob,
1 cycle Tamoxifen with Ob,
Diagnosed PCOS 11/5/12
clomid, trigger & timed bd 12/12 BFN
1st clomid IUI 1/4/13 BFN.
2nd clomid IUI 2/13 cancelled didn't respond to clomid.
3/15/13 scheduled laparoscopy & on bcp.
May 10 IUI from injectibles - BFN
May 22 done with interventions it will either happen or it won't.
February 2014 No longer actively trying, but not preventing.