Someone on my fb posted an ultrasound picture and announced she was pregnant. I am very happy for her, actually, but now I feel effed up about myself. Why does IF have to be so cruel? I just wanna cry right now. I don't know why I have allowed this to hurt me. I just feel empty, and like all the progress I've made emotionally and mentally are clinging on the precipice of disaster and undoing. Ok vent over. I'll consult my pillow with the tears about to fall.
Me: 31, PCOS (insulin resistance) TTC since 05/11.
DH: 31 Great SA after multivitamins and diet improvements.
6/25/12 IUI #1 cancelled.
IVF #1 w/ICSI on 8/23/12 CANCELLED due to ovulation.
IVF #1.2 BFN 11/6/12.
FET #1 12/20/12. Beta 12/31/12-BFFN.
FET #2 6/12/13, transferred 2 1A embryos (and there go all my eggs in one basket, literally).HPT on 6/19/13 = BFP! @ 7dp5dt.
6/24/13 Beta 1=659! 6/26/13 Beta 2=1802 6/28/13 Beta 3=2962 P4=14, Will continue progesterone support. U/S on 7/3 revealed TWINS! Premature labor on 10/22. On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!