I had a total meltdown this morning. After talking to DH, I realized part of it is just that I feel awful right now (thank you 1st trimester), but I don't have the excitement for this pregnancy that got me through first trimester in the past. I am so guarded against getting excited and it definitely is making all yucky symptoms more draining. I talked to my mom a little while after my meltdown and she helped me realize that all the medical micromanagement of this pregnancy from BFP on is making me super anxious. I have a prenatal appointment tonight so I am going to bring it up with my midwife and see if we can come up with a way for things to be less anxiety provoking. Anyone else feel like all the extra early pregnancy attention makes things harder for them?
BFP #1 10/13/09 EDD 06/20/10 DS Born on 06/26/10
BFP #2 03/08/11 EDD 11/16/11 DD Born on 11/04/11
BFP #3 08/29/12 EDD 05/06/13 M/C on 08/30/12
BFP #4 11/01/12 EDD 07/09/2013 M/C on 12/28/12
BFP #5 04/30/13 EDD 01/03/14 DS Born on 01/02/14