Pregnant after a Loss

Today... (XP)

Birth story: On Monday, April 29th, Petra's Pebbles was born via primary c-section. She was 20 inches long and 6 lbs 7 oz at the time. Unfortunately, while she was early full term by one day, she was very much a preemie in many ways. She became severely jaundiced and began losing weight, and was down 13% of her original mass by the time she was just 40 hours old. Mr Petra and I spent the first 5 days of her life not sure she would make it. Someday soon I will post the long version of this, but not today.

 

Today, she is 9 days old.

Today, I am running on 6 blissful hours of sleep.

Today, she has regained most of her birthweight.

Today, we went out and ran errands together and I did not insist on sitting in the back with her.

Today, I was only asked if I were her 'foster mom', not her 'grandma.'

Today, her liver is fully functional.

Today, she not longer is fighting the antibodies that I passed to her during her birth.

Today, she breast fed for the first time. 

Today, I am mother to a healthy living child.

Today, I no longer (constantly) fear that she won't make it. 

Today, I am thankful for the steadfast support I have received from the AL community over the years I've been trying to get here. So very, very thankful.

 

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Massive uterine fibroids removed 3/06
BFP 1/11; MM/C discovered @ 10w, loss at 6w; Cytotec
B/W 7/11 = normal CD3, FSH 8.9; 7DPO progesterone 1.7
Three Clomid cycles, all BFN, Off to an RE for me...
FSH=8.7 E2=30 AMH=1.8 HSG clear, SA=great
Inj. IUI #1 12/9/11 BFN, Inj. IUI #2 1/6/12 BFN
Inj. IUI #3 1/30/12 BFP!, HCG doubled through 6w, 7w u/s mm/c twins
Factor V Leiden, Hetero, symptomatic
Op Hysteroscopy 5/12, removed scar tissue and uterine septum
Doing Cryo-DE IVF 
Beautiful hatching 5-blast transfered 8/30
BFP 9/7/12 EDD May 19, 2013
A/S on 12/21/12, Petra's having a baby, it's the end of the world!
Pebbles arrived safe and sound 4/13. Placenta accreta found.
Op hysteroscopy 2/7, reopen ute/remove adhesions from accreta
Found severe Ashermans. Fuuuuuuu... Repeat Op Hyst in March.
Op Hyst ver 3.0 looks good so far, find out if it worked in June.
Finally got the damn IUD out. Waiting to stop bleeding.
SIS shows rippled funky shaped ute, but given clearance to begin sFET calendar.
Here goes everything...
sFET#2 BFP, ended in m/c.
Waiting for the next Op Hysteroscopy to find out what next.
Scratch that, retained tissue. 3rd Cytotec round.
Another damn Op Hyst. Found and removed retained tissue.
Pathology returned fine, no molar. Cleared for final attempt after next cycle.

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"Petra, you are an obese 40+ year old. Stop jumping through these hoops. Just adopt already. There is no shame in that." -Deethebee
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  • CGMBCGMB
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    Congratulations Petra and welcome to the world baby Pebbles. I read this entire post with tears running down my cheeks. It's a good day for your family and I hope you have many many more.

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  • I've been reading all of Pebble's updates and her birth story and DS's are almost identical.  I am so happy for you and Mr. P.  Continue to enjoy your beautiful baby girl and know we are here if you need any support. 

    BTW DS is 11 now and out feeding the chickens.  Time goes by so fast.



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  • Such a great day! Happy for you!
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  • So very happy for you and glad y'all are doing good!!!

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  • AlbahAlbah
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    This is an amazing post! So happy that Pebbles has made a complete turnaround and that mommy Petra gets to deal with the regular worries of mommyhood. ;
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    BFP #4: 05/23/12, EDD: 01/31/12, Early MC at 5 wks

    RPL Workup: + LPD (7DPO Prog = 7.8, Endometrial Bx = out of phase)
    Elevated Alpha 2-glycoprotein IgA and antiphosphatidylserine IgM -->
    Hematologist said not to worry and no need for treatment!

    Dx: LPD
    Cycle #1(08/2012): Clomid 50 mg CD3-7, Ovidrel CD13 + Progesterone = It worked!
    BFP #5 on 09/10/12 (11 DPO). HCG #1 @ 14DPO = 131.6 HCG #2 @ 16DPO = 509
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  • I'm so happy that things are going so well now, love! Congratulations, momma!


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    BFP#2 10/19/2012 EDD 6/30/2013 Delivered safely two days early

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  • I'm so glad things are getting better! This makes me smile...

    I did how ever laugh about the grandma thing..... Sorry! 

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  • So very happy for you!!! Glad to read these good updates!
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  • Wonderful update!  So happy to hear Pebbles is getting her footing and you all are finding your (beautiful) family groove!

    Hugs and love a million times over!

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  • This made me cry...so happy for you!! Congratulations
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  • pnutgpnutg
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    What a great update! Glad she's thriving.
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    Congratulations, Petra! This is great news! 

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  • So wonderful to hear baby is getting into a groove! I'm sure you don't know it, but you were my saving grace when I was on the May '13 board. I left the boards a little after my loss, but often thought of how you were doing! So happy to see a great report now that I'm back. You will be a great mother to a very lucky little girl.
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    Rylee Elise BFP 4.28.2010 EDD 1.7.2011 born 12.27.2010

    Preston Hayes BFP 8.29.2012 EDD 5.11.2013 born sleeping @ 17 weeks 12.1.2012
    severe necrotizing acute chorioamnionitis from peptostreptococcus

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  • Congratulations! I'm sorry she had a rocky start, but I'm glad she's doing well now. How is your recovery going?

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    BFP#4 8.27.13 (EDD 5.6.14) DD born 4.23.14

     

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  • Yeah. So happy your family is together and healthy.

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    BFP #3-EDD 12/19/13 - Peanut passed at 9w1d. D&C 05/31/13

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  • Oh Petra, I am so happy to finally hear an update from you. I'm sorry that the first 5 days were so scary, I can't imagine how you guys must have been feeling. But I love your updates for today. Today is a good day.

    Love you and know that I am thinking of you tons. Sending you and Pebbles some giant ((hugs)). 

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    07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
    BFP #2 01/14/11. EDD 09/25/11. Missed m/c 02/18/11. D&C 02/24/11. }Dustin{
    TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
    BFP #3 08/18/13. EDD 04/30/14. Missed m/c 09/25/13. D&C 09/26/13. }Daylin{
    TTA for 7 months
    Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
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  • So glad to hear that Pebbles is doing so much better! Congrats Mama!
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  • Congrats! Glad your sweet girl is healthy and happy!

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    BFP #2 9/10/12 CP 9/19/12@ 5.5wks EDD 5/21/13
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  • ramy3ramy3
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    Oh Petra, I'm so so happy for you. I remember reading your story for the first time when I was originally on the May 13 BMB and I never stopped hoping and praying that this sweet baby would be healthy and perfect. I'm sorry things were rough in the beginning, but I'm so glad today is a good day. Many prayers that you both continue to grow stronger together!
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  • jrtmomjrtmom
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    Congrats!  I am so glad to hear she is doing well!
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  • I'm glad Pebbles is doing so much better!
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    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!

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  • This is such a beautiful update! I have tears streaming as I read. I'm so sorry it was scary and rough the first 5 days. Praying it is peaceful sailing from here on out.
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    BFP#3~2/03~DS born 9/29/03 BFP#4~12/05~DS born 8/3/06
    BFP#5~9/07~edd6/15/08~m/c @ 6weeks
    BFP#6~1/12~edd 9/16/12~m/c 2/22/12 @ 10weeks3days
    BFP#7~6/12~edd 2/22/13~c/p
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  • Today, and every day, I am so happy for you and your baby! So glad she is doing so well. Precious and healthy.
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  • This post fills my heart UP. I have been waiting for it for days and praying for your whole family. That little one is so freaking lucky to have you as her mama and I know you're enjoying every second of it. Now, get thee to PAL b/c we're saving you a seat at our lunch table!!
  • Oh Petra, I am literally in tears. I am so very happy for you and love hearing that Pebbles is doing so much better. So much love to you sweets!
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    BFP #1 Oct 1 2010 MC Oct 3 2010
    DX PCOS w/ AO Nov 2011
    3 rounds of Clomid all BFN
    BFP #2 10/12/12 Beta #1 45.1 Beta #2 160.7 * 2/27 diagnosed with IEF in utero.
    Dalaney born @ 35w2d via emergency C-section due to Pre-E after 26 hrs of labor & losing her HB twice. She weighed 5lbs 8oz & was 19in long on May 26th 2013 @ 605am
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  • So happy for u Petra, huge congratulations!!!

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  • morkmork
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    I'm crying happy tears. I'm so happy for all three of you. 
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  • Congrats! i hope your little miracle keeps going strong!
    6 m/c
    Anovulatory cycles, increased Synthroid Diagnosed Sep 2010
    Natural cycle Dec 2010 BFP M/C 6 1/2 Weeks, D&E Jan 2011
    1 Clomid/Ovidrel BFN May 2011
    Natural cycle Aug 2011 BFP M/C 4 Weeks
    1 IUI Sept 2011 BFP M/c 7 weeks
    Provera Dec 2011 BFP M/C 3 Weeks
    DQ ALPHA HLA MATCH, High NK Cells Diagnosed Dec 2011
    IVF March 2012 BFP m/c 4weeks 5 days (IL, Prednisone)
    IVF#2w/DS July 2012 MEGA FAILURE BFN (IL, Dexamethasone)
    Diagnosed No real HLA Match, DQ Beta Triad, High TNF, Low NK Cells
    Oct 2012 Natural Cycle m/c 4wks (Lovenox, Prednisone) 
    Went to Beer Center- high tnf, low lad, implantation failure
    Nov/Dec 2012 LIT Treatment
    Dec 12 Humira
    Jan 2013 BFP
    Humira,LIT,Prednisone, Lovenox, IVIG, Baby Aspirin
    Miracle Born August 2013 Premature

    Yours doesn't have to be a sad story



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  • Congratulations on your baby girl!




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