I had my little man on May 1st, 24 days early, via emergency csection due to placenta previa. Since the beginning we have struggled with breast feeding and have realized the only way is to use the nipple guard. Once this worked and we have been doing well I was so excited. He has had issues with bilirubin but we were discharged yesterday and went back today for bloodwork for him. His doctors office called and said it went up and I have to stop bf for the next 24 hours and pump and dump and dump everything I've saved so far bc my bilirubin is making his already high even higher. I am so upset right now. We just established a great bond and latch and now we have to give bottles of formula. Anyone else have this experience? First I feel horrible bc my body makes it nearly impossible to latch and now my milk is only hurting him. Feeling like such a bad mom.