I am due May 19 and we are absolutely committed to a med-free hospital birth with a midwife. I have done the research and unless absolutely necessary really want to avoid any interventions in order to give my baby and myself the best opportunity. I won't go through all the arguments with you since that's absolutely preaching to the choir.
We did Bradley class. I've read all the books. I've read natural birth stories. I've talked to positive women who had natural, med-free births. I'm doing everything I can to prepare for this.
But I'm still scared and worried and nervous and don't know how I'm going to find the strength to get through. I don't even know what I'm so scared of--the pain? Tearing (which I know is less likely with med free)? Recovery (which is supposedly easier med free)?
That my husband won't be able to support me as well as he should (he has NOT been good about doing daily relaxation practice and I think has only done it 2 times with me outside of our classes even when I've asked him)?
I am also having my mom and SIL at the birth. Mom had C-sections for both kids, so that's a fear too--we're built similarly and she wasn't able to birth us vaginally, so what if I run into problems? SIL had a very traumatic first birth with an epi that didn't work and as a result opted for a C-section for the second (can be argued medically necessary due to the complications with the first).
Please talk me off the ledge and help me find some piece of mind and confidence that I can do this.