Oh my gosh, please somebody tell me this can get better.
Today was my first time back to work. DD is 15 weeks. I work evening shift as a nurse at a busy ICU.
Due to birth trauma DD has had trouble sucking/swallowing and we tried since 3 weeks for her to take a bottle and she first could not and now will not due to a combo of difficulty and aversion. Yes, we have tried numerous bottles, therapy, nipples, thickened feeds, etc.
I nursed like crazy and left for work at 2pm. My mom and DH stayed to watch DD at our house. She did NOT EAT and stooled 4 TIMES for a total of 6 for the day (which is insane, she normally does once). They brought her to me to nurse and she refused to eat, just fussed and played at the boob. She also DID NOT sleep from 0130 and was still awake when I talked to them at 9PM. I am going insane waiting for my shift to end.
She is going to get dehydrated at this rate! This is not worth the stress! What the hell am I going to do? I am the breadwinner and hold the benefits, but my daughter and family are suffering for this. Not to mention if she nurses all night now I am going to be even more exhausted if that is even possible and if I mess up at my job people can die! This is awful, I am so close to tears, what do I do?????