Pregnant after a Loss

XP:Thank you ladies

I'm on for the first time today and saw my call outs.  Thank you so much...all of you.  A quick update of the remainder of my week.  Thursday we stuck around home mostly.  Then my parents called around 7:30pm and asked if we'd be home.  They went down to the beach and dragged that piece of driftwood that I carved Liam's name into!  (DH and I were going to get it today.)  I can't believe they did that for me.  Well yes I can, but I was still so incredibly grateful.  It's in our backyard now. :)  Today DH and I took DS (and Liam) to a nearby state park spillway where you can feed hundreds and thousands of fish.  DS loved it soooo much and DH and I hadn't been there since we were little kids!  It was a beautiful day weather and company wise.  It was just the four of us for the very last time.  I got a picture with my camera on timer of us sitting on a bench in front of a bunch of red tulips.  I will treasure it forever.  Then we came home and played and did yardwork outside.  DS sat on my lap and cuddled with me as we swung in our gazebo swing.  He was so quiet.  Almost like he "knew" it was just me and him and Liam.  We were so quiet that birds actually came and ate from there feeders which are only about 6-8 feet away from the gazebo.  I will never forget that either.  Then before we went inside, I drove DS around the house on the riding mower.  He loves it so much and I love that we did all of these things together.  He's too young to know what's going on but I'll never forget this week with my boys.

Tomorrow at 8:00am is my procedure.  I'm so sad and scared.  I'm pretty sure I'd like to see him when all is said and done.  I'll decide for sure tomorrow.  Then what do I do after that on the way home without my Liam?  I have to leave him there.  They told me that remains are cremated and then sent to Illinois for burial.   I pray with all my heart he knows how much I love him because I do...more than I can ever describe to anyone. 

I'll update when I can.  I may feel like it right away or it may take me a day or a week.. I have no idea, but I want each and every one of you to know how much I appreciate your love and support.  As horrible as all of this has been, I'm telling you...your love has helped so much.  Thank you ladies from the bottom of my heart.

Lilypie - (dLe1)

 

      ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

       We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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Re: XP:Thank you ladies

  • HUGS you'll be in my thoughts and prayers all day tomorrow, you and Liam.
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  • I'm so glad you got this time with your boys before having to say goodbye. You and Liam will be in my T&P tonight and tomorrow. (((Big big hugs)))
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  • Oh sweetie, my heart is so heavy for what you are having to endure. Nobody can prepare you for what it feels like to leave the hospital empty handed. You are such an incredible mom and an amazing woman, and Liam absolutely knows how much you love him. He can feel it. I truly believe that. Please don't worry about updating, we will be here whenever you're ready. Strength, peace, and comfort to you.

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  • I'll be keeping you, your husband, and both of your sons in my heart, tomorrow especially. It's okay to be scared and sad. Just know that we're all thinking of you. I wish there was more we could do to help you through. HUGS!

    ETA: Liam knows how much you love him. I promise he knows.

    I wish I could be there to walk out of the clinic tomorrow with you. I'm not going to lie; walking out of there empty-handed and with empty arms is the worst feeling in the world. I wish I could spare you that. Hold on tight to your husband when you do.

    More HUGS! 



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    Hugs. Your strength is absolutely astounding. I'll be thinking of and praying for you guys tomorrow.
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  • You have such sweet, thoughtful parents, that they got the driftwood for you. :)

    I'm glad you were able to do things, and make pleasant memories for your last few days with both boys. 

    You are such a strong, amazing woman, and I just want to give you the biggest hug in the world right now. <3

    I hope your procedure tomorrow goes smoothly, and your recovery time is short.  I'll be thinking of you. *monster hugs*

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  • Hugs, Quigley. You, Liam and your entire family will be in my thoughts tomorrow..
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  • I'm so glad you got the piece of drift wood. : Tons of HUGS for tomorrow. On the way home, you will cry, you will grieve, you will hurt. But you will heal, one day at a time. Even if you feel like you don't really want to heal. The heart mends itself. Thinking of you.
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  • You will be in my continued prayers for peace and that you're able to feel all our love tomorrow.

    Huge, huge hugs.

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  • So many ((Hugs)) for you!  I will hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow.
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  • It sounds like such a beautiful day you had with your family. Lots of love to you. You're a great mom.

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  • Sending you lots of love.

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  • So many prayers, countless hugs and continuous love always.
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  • Lots of love and prayers.
     
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    Thoughts and prayers for you and your family

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  • I have typed and erased this msg so many times. Nome of my words seem to do your strength justice. You are an amazing woman and mom. An inspiration. Liam truly is one lucky boy.
    4 IVF, 2 FET
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    September 12, 2012- m/c 2

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    1/14- 32 Progesterone 20
    1/16- 100 Progesterone 23
    1/22- 2054!! Progesterone 18.7 (On supplements since 1/16)

    PLEASE be our sticky rainbow baby.. You have no idea how much you are loved already!!

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  • many many hugs <3

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  • Please know you have everyone one of us behind you. I'll be thinking of you.

    Don't worry about updating us, take care of youself and when you are ready, we'll be here for you.

    Huge HUGS!!!
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    BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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  • Your week was so beautiful. I know you will cherish the memories always. You will be extra close to my heart today, Quig. TnPs, hugs, and love.

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  • Huge ((((hugs)))) and thoughts and prayers for you and your family.
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  • ::tears::

    What beautiful ways to spend the rest of the week with Liam.

    He is so lucky to have you as his mother. He knows how much you love him.

    So many hugs.
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  • Oh Quig, I'm sitting here this morning with tears rolling down my face. It sounds like you had a wonderful week. I'm so glad that you were able to spend this time together as a family. And how sweet of your parents to get that piece of driftwood for you. I am sending so much love your way today.

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  • I'm so glad you could have such a beautiful week with YH and two sweet boys! I'm sure you made memories you will never forget. ((hugss)), ((hugs)), and more ((hugs))!

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    BFP#3~2/03~DS born 9/29/03 BFP#4~12/05~DS born 8/3/06
    BFP#5~9/07~edd6/15/08~m/c @ 6weeks
    BFP#6~1/12~edd 9/16/12~m/c 2/22/12 @ 10weeks3days
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  • Sending lots of love, thoughts and hugs to you and your family. I love all the wonderful things you did with Liam this week. You are an amazing mother and I am absolutely certain he realizes that and how loved he is.

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