Trouble TTC

Heartbroken.

First beta this morning turned up negative. I'm so upset, I couldn't even finish out my work day. I hate IF...

Re: Heartbroken.

  • I am so sorry.  Hang in there.


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    TTC our first take-home baby since June 2012 with Anovulation and PCOS

    Rx: Metformin, 1500mg || Tx:  No response to ovulation-inducing meds
    Nov 2013: IVF#1 = very first BFP! EDD: 8/15/14
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    Me-34,DH-34
    Dx:Hypothyroidism 2008
    HSG- All clear CD 3 bloodwork normal
    SA- Abnormal Dx:MFI
    DH on 50mg Clomid 3x week
    BFP#1- 1/21/13 CP 1/24/13
    Cycle 18,19 & 20 50mg Clomid+trigger+IUI= All BFFN
    Cycle 21-25 Taking a break for now, still HIO Hoping!
    Moving onto IVF Next AF
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  • I am SO sorry. {{{{{HUGS}}}}

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    Me: Hashimoto's (thyroid), Annovulatory cycles, endometrial hyperplasia 

     DH-low motility and poor morphology

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    Medicated Cycle #2, 3, 4 (9/13 10/13 11/13) 5mg Femara + TI + Ovidrel= BFN/No Response
    IUI #1 (1/14) 5mg Femara (CD3-CD7) + Follistim (50/100/150/200/250IU) = Over responded
    IUI #2 (3/14) 27 days of Follistim 50/75/100/150/200 (5 follies) + Lurpon+ IUI (4/11) = ??? Testing 4/22

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  • So sorry. Sending ((hugs)) your way.

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    Me 32 :: DH 40

     TTC since November, 2011

    DH's SA : Excellent

    Lap and Hysteroscopy June 2012

    DX: PCOS, Stage III Endo, slight Adenomyosis, blocked tube, and probable LPD

    Treatments:  6 Months Lupron Depot injections; 1500 mg metformin; 3 cycles of Clomid + TI = BFN

    3 endometrial biopsies all were "out of phase" 

    September - December, 2013:  Break to lose weight and get healthy

    40 lb weight loss but still not ovulating "in phase"  

    February - March 2014: bcps + follistim + trigger + TI = BFP

     Beta #1 (12dpo): 30; Beta #2 (18dpo): 500; Beta #3 (25dpo): 7,000!!! 

    1st u/s 4/16: One beautiful hb at 144 bmp 

    EDD: November 29, 2014

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  • I'm so sorry.
     TTC#1 Since April 2011 
    BFP#1 5.23.12 C/P 4w4d 
    BFP #2 10.1.13
    EDD June 10, 2014
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  • So sorry.
    Me- 35 Dx endo; DH- 33 no probs.
    BFP#1 (totally a wonderful surprise)- 3/10/11. IUFD 6/25/11. 
    TTC since 8/2011.
    BFP#2- 11/1/11. EDD 7/6/12. Blighted ovum 12/1/11.

    New OBGYN 12/2012- CD3 labs, SA, HSG normal. 
    First RE appt 1/16/2013. Unexplained infertility. Lap planned. 

    12/2012- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN 
    1/2013- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN.

     Lap 2/11/2013- Removed endo. 

    3/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN
    4/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN
    5/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

    June 2013- Time for a new RE!

    July 2013- We're in Shared Risk! Love my new RE!
    August 2013- IVF#1- 14 R, 11F, transferred 1 perfect blast, 5 day 5 frosties= BFN.
    Sept 2013- Let's get ready for FET October 7th ish!< transfer 2 embies 10/11/13.......BFP 10/18/13!!!!/div>

    PAIF/SAIF and everyone is welcome. If I can make even one person's journey less painful, I will consider my experience here successful. Thank you to all for sharing their stories, the intimate details of their lives, their knowledge, and their hearts. I hope this experience changes me, always for the better.
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    :( IF sucks
    TTC Since August 2011
    Me: Delayed O, slightly low AMH, HSG clear. 
    Hypothyroidism since 2000
    DH: Borderline Morph, volume

    Cycle #1: Clomid + trigger: BFN 
    Cycle #2: Clomid + trigger: BFFN 
    Cycle #3: Clomid + trigger: BFN 
    Cyle #4: Follistim + trigger: BFFN 
    Cycle #5: Follistim + trigger: BFN 
    Cycle #6: Follistim + trigger + IUI#1: benched for too many follies
    Cycle #7: Follis tim + Trigger + IUI#1.1: BFN
    Cycle #8 Follistim + Trigger + IUI #2: benched for 30mm cyst
    Cycle #9: Follistim + Trigger + IUI #2.1: BFN
    IVF#1 w/ICSI December 2013: BFN
    IVF#2 late Feb/early March

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  • I'm so sorry...
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    Me: 32 DH: 34 married 7.26.2008 ~ off BCP since Sept 2011, officially TTC#1 since March 2012 
    Dx: unexplained IF, arcuate uterus, minimal endometriosis, poor embryo quality, borderline morphology 
    Tx: IUI #1-3: Clomid+Ovidrel = BFN 6.3.13, 6.28.13, 7.26.13 ~ Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty 8.7.13 ~ IUI #4: Follistim+Cetrotide+Ovidrel+IUI #4 (canceled, overstimulation) +TI = BFN 9.12.13
    IVF #1: Antagonist Protocol ~ 10R/6M/6F (3 ICSI) ~ Day 3 ET of two 7-cell embryos ~ remaining four embryos arrested at 4-5 cell stage = BFN 10.22.13 ~ IVF #2: Estrogen Priming Antagonist with HGH ~ 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage = heartbroken 12.9.13 
    IUI #4.1: Follistim+Ovidrel+IUI #4.1 = BFN 1.14.14 ~ The Vagina Tour: Consulted with 4 REs for second opinions
    IVF #3: Lupron Down Reg Protocol ~ 9R/5M/5F (with ICSI) ~ 3 embryos arrested by Day 5, 1 more by Day 6, 1 made it to blastocyst! 2.27.14 ~ CCS Testing is normal!!! We have a frostie ninja!! Hallelujah! 3.12.14
                
    FET #1: currently PUPO ~  Beta or Bust!!  4.22.14 ~ GO NINJA GO NINJA GO!!!

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  • Oh gosh, I am so sorry!!! ((HUGS!!!))
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    Age: Me 26, DH 27, Married Oct. 10, 2009 ,TTC since March 2012
    Problem: Irregular menstruation, unexplained
    Nov&Dec-Provera because of no period after 35+ days
    First RE appt 1/10/2013
    Tests: TSH (normal), Prolactin (normal), SA (abnormal)
    Hysteroscopy (normal) and PCOS labs (negative/normal) 1/15/2013
    2/1/13- HPT BFP but Beta Hcg was negative
    Plan: Femara + Trigger + IUI in April if no real BFP before then Bloggy Blog!
  • I am so so sorry :(

    TTC #1 since 7/2011
    ME: 35  DH: 36
    SA-12/28/11-normal
    HSG-1/16/12-possible blocked left tube
    BFP#1---CP 7/9/12
    Hysteroscopy-8/9/12-blocked left tube for sure, proceeding with IUI#1
    IUI#1 (Gonal-F + trigger)=BFP#2 m/c @ 19w1d D&E 1/23/13
    IUI #2 (Gonal F + trigger)=BFP#3 EDD 1/6/14 TWINS!!!
    Identical girls born 11/17/13
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  • Positive thoughts and energy your way. {{Hugs}}


    DH:30 Me:23
    TTC since: AUG 2011
    DX: Annovulatory
    Total Thyroidectomy OCT 2012
    HSG: CLEAR!!

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  • Thank you all for the hugs and kind words. It means a lot. I'm trying to keep my chin up, but it's so hard. And to top it off, my 19yo SIL's baby shower is tomorrow...I don't know if I'll be able to smile through my jealousy and hurt.
  • I completely understand.  Tomorrow is a new day.  You can make it through!  praying for some peace for you.

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    Married August 2012 -- Me (40 yrs old) My husband (45 yrs. old) 

    RE referral from ObGYN in late Jan. 2013 -- Testing Confirms Unexplained IF 

    IUI #"s1 - 3 (Femara + IUI) April - June 2013 - all BFN

      Decided to do IVF... Began stimming on September 10th!  Egg Retrieval 9/20/13.  19 eggs: 6 to mature to freeze after 6 fertilized with ICSI

     3 morula stage embryos transferred on 9/25/13.....Beta #1 on 10/4/13/ = 7.5  Beta #2 on 10/6/13 =  negative

      IVF#2 - Lupron plan  (set to begin on 10/28/13)  (Planning on thawing and fertilizing our 6 eggs with ICSI as well as all of the mature eggs they retrieve with this fresh cycle.)

     Late October 2013 - ectopic pregnancy - methotrexate injection....benched 3 months

    CD1 - 12/5/13...Lupron set to start on 12/26/13; CD1 - 1/2/14....Baseline 1/3/14....begin follistim tonight and continue with lupron.  (Got my calendar today!  IVF#2 is a go!)

    ER = 1/14/14  (11 eggs....9 were mature. 9 fertilized.  Of the 6 mature eggs we thawed, only 4 fertilized.  At this time, we have 13 eggs fertilized and growing.  Waiting for news about a 3-day or 5-day transfer.)

    ET = 1/19/14  (5dt).....3 blastocysts transferred!   (All nine embryos didn't make it to freeze.  =(  )

    Beta #1 = 1/28/14   (2 weeks after ER)  BFP! 209 (9dp5dt)   EDD 10/7/14

    Beta #2 - 1/30/14  (11 dp5dt) 302

    Beta #3 - 2/3/14  (15 dp5dt)  1222 

    Ultrasound set for 2/17/14......TWINS!        Twin A - HR 124 bpm; Twin B - HR 126 bpm

    Final Ultrasound with RE 3/10/14 - Twin A - HR 176 bpm; Twin B - HR 177 bpm.

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  • Sending lots of hugs your way. IF is just plain sucky. So sorry :(


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    TTC since March 2012 (2nd attempt), 3/26/13 Dx: Unexplained Infertility; 4/8/13 HSG, tubes open; DH SA good
    4/2013 1st cycle of Clomid (50mg)=BFN
    5/2013 2nd cycle of Clomid (50mg)=BFN
    6/2013 3rd cycle of Clomid + TI(100mg)=BFFN
    7/2013 1st cycle of Femara, IUI #1 cancelled, No sperm mobility (huge surprise)
    8/2013 2nd cycle of Femara, IUI #1 attempt #2 complete, BFN 
    9/2013 3rd cycle of Femara, Ovidrel, IUI #2, BFP!!!!! 
    Beta #1: (14DPIUI) 185!!
    Beta #2: (16DPIUI) 358, progesterone 40.3
    Beta #3: (20DPIUI) 2600.2!!!!
    U/S #1 (24DPIUI) TWO poppyseeds!!!! 
  • I am sorry. BFN are so disappointing. Hang in there. 
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    Me: 30, DH: 34.
    TTC since 2/2012 
    3/2013 polyp removed 
    Unexplained IF, endo has not been ruled out
    7/2013 5 mg femera, 3 mature follicles, trigger IUI = BFN
    9/2013 5 mg femera, 4 mature follicles, trigger IUI = BFN
    10/13   5 mg femera, 3 mature follicles, HCG   IUI = BFN
    IVF # 1 w/ ICSI-Antagonist protocol.  11 days of stims (225 Follistim, 150 menopur). Acupuncture. 23 R 12 Fertilized. Day 3 transfer (3/8/14) of 1, 8 cell grade II embryo. 1 5AA frostie. 
    3/19 beta = 98, 3/21 beta = 198, 4/9 ultrasound - heart beat found, right on track

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  • image badrianne:
    I am sorry. BFN are so disappointing. Hang in there. 

    BFNs are definitely so disappointing...especially when I was so excited this morning for my beta and all the girls I work with (I got it done at the hospital I work at) were cheering me on, then I came into work a few hours later a blubbering mess. My RE wants to wait until I get my period (which, who knows how long that will be), then start me on my third round of Clomid. All this waiting for everything... 

  • image brandykid:
    Thank you all for the hugs and kind words. It means a lot. I'm trying to keep my chin up, but it's so hard. And to top it off, my 19yo SIL's baby shower is tomorrow...I don't know if I'll be able to smile through my jealousy and hurt.

    :( that's terrible that you have to go through all this heartache and somehow find a way to put on a happy face at a relative's baby shower. Try to plan something nice for yourself, good luck getting through it, and big huge ((hugs)). IF sucks... just so unfair :( 

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    Me: 32 DH: 34 married 7.26.2008 ~ off BCP since Sept 2011, officially TTC#1 since March 2012 
    Dx: unexplained IF, arcuate uterus, minimal endometriosis, poor embryo quality, borderline morphology 
    Tx: IUI #1-3: Clomid+Ovidrel = BFN 6.3.13, 6.28.13, 7.26.13 ~ Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty 8.7.13 ~ IUI #4: Follistim+Cetrotide+Ovidrel+IUI #4 (canceled, overstimulation) +TI = BFN 9.12.13
    IVF #1: Antagonist Protocol ~ 10R/6M/6F (3 ICSI) ~ Day 3 ET of two 7-cell embryos ~ remaining four embryos arrested at 4-5 cell stage = BFN 10.22.13 ~ IVF #2: Estrogen Priming Antagonist with HGH ~ 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage = heartbroken 12.9.13 
    IUI #4.1: Follistim+Ovidrel+IUI #4.1 = BFN 1.14.14 ~ The Vagina Tour: Consulted with 4 REs for second opinions
    IVF #3: Lupron Down Reg Protocol ~ 9R/5M/5F (with ICSI) ~ 3 embryos arrested by Day 5, 1 more by Day 6, 1 made it to blastocyst! 2.27.14 ~ CCS Testing is normal!!! We have a frostie ninja!! Hallelujah! 3.12.14
                
    FET #1: currently PUPO ~  Beta or Bust!!  4.22.14 ~ GO NINJA GO NINJA GO!!!

    All are Welcome!

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  • I'm really sorry about your BFN.

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    TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
    Oct 12 - Feb 13:  2 clomid + TI BFNs, 2 hysteroscopies (fibroid)
    April 13:  clomid + TI = BFN
    May 13:  clomid + IUI #1 = BFN
    July 13:  clomid + IUI #2 = BFP!! 
    Oct 13:  Lost baby girl at 12w1d (MMC with D&C), Nov 13:  hysteroscopy #3
    Dec 13 & Jan 14:  2 clomid + IUI BFNs
    Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP (EDD 11/4/14)

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    image brandykid:
    Thank you all for the hugs and kind words. It means a lot. I'm trying to keep my chin up, but it's so hard. And to top it off, my 19yo SIL's baby shower is tomorrow...I don't know if I'll be able to smile through my jealousy and hurt.

    :( that's terrible that you have to go through all this heartache and somehow find a way to put on a happy face at a relative's baby shower. Try to plan something nice for yourself, good luck getting through it, and big huge ((hugs)). IF sucks... just so unfair :( 

     

    I honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through it...as much as I want to be excited and happy for her, I am still reeling from the news yesterday. I woke up this morning feeling even worse than yesterday and have to make it through work today as it is and I just want to be alone to get myself together this weekend.

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