So LO is now 2.5 weeks old and as of this past Saturday, my husband and I made the decision to start pumping and bottlefeeding. I was in so much pain from breastfeeding (even after seeing a lactation consultant), that I was literally putting off feeding my baby! Now when I say that, I don't mean by a lot, but when he would get fussy and hungry, I'd ask my mom and hubby to please take him, change him, walk around with him for a few minutes - anything to give me a few more minutes to prepare myself (mentally). My hands (AND FEET) would sweat and my whole body would tense up in preparation for the awfulness of breastfeeding. Part of the pain was my own doing, I wasn't switching holds when I was feeding him so he really tore apart both nipples. I just wasn't enjoying my time with him and whenever he started to get fussy, my whole body would just shut down and I was feeling so depressed. Saturday rolled around and I talked to my hubby about pumping and bottlefeeding. We both decided that we were deadset on giving DS my breastmilk, but we weren't deadset on where it came from. Since I've started doing it, I actually enjoy the time I spend with my LO and I'm so much happier. My concerns now are keeping up with his schedule, but I try to pump every 2 hours and I am usually about 1-2 feedings ahead of him.
Anyone else eping and/or have thoughts about this. I'm hoping to continue to do this. My hubby's only concern is that if I want to go back to breastfeeding, DS may not latch properly and I'll be upset that I can't breastfeed - but I just don't see that happening. It was such an awful experience for me and I felt guilty NOT doing it - but ultimately, pumping and giving him the bottle has been the best decision :-)