I know I've been a PW lately, I'm sorry for post after post. It's just been such an excruciating difficult time and you ladies mean more to me than you'll ever know. How a group of women whom I have never met could mean SO much to me is incredible.
I had my D&C yesterday and it went well. OB said that the gestational sac and baby had already detached and I was on the road to miscarry in the next couple of days. This gave me comfort to know we made the right decision for D&C. The procedure went well and while I'm bleeding a little today, I feel back to my normal self. In fact, I'm enjoying a cup of coffee. I'm trying to find the bright side (as though there could be one) to not being pregnant anymore. I think I'll go have myself some sushi and wine in the next few days too!
As for next steps, I talked to the embryologist and she confirmed our fears that she doesn't think our final embryo will survive thaw since it's been frozen twice using slow-freeze methods. So that being said, I feel strongly that our next step will be to find more embryos. This is scary because it's really hard to do, but I feel confident I will some way some how. I may put my feelers out on my blog asking if any of my readers have any that they don't know what to do with, and maybe (if I get enough guts) I might kindly ask on SAIF too. We want more than one child in the long run anyway so it feels like the right thing to do to find more now.
We aren't going to do any "products of conception" miscarriage testing (ugh i hate that term). I did a lot of thinking about what you ladies said and I feel comfortable just letting it be. Although my RE wants me to do some autoimmune testing since there are some questionable aspects of my health that might point to autoimmune. I don't know anything about any of it.
And lastly, we planted a beautiful "Little Gem Magnolia" tree in our yard with a perfect little sleeping angel baby statue below it. I always felt like the baby was a girl so I've named her Magnolia (or baby Maggie) and that's brought me enormous amount of comfort thinking of her as a real person that did exist and will always exist in my heart. I put a picture of the tree and statue on my blog.
So that's it for me for now. I'll catch up on all the posts from yesterday but I hope everyone is doing okay. Thank you for thinking of me and the kind words, as always.