Today I went in for blood work and ultrasound. Assuming everything was fine, my FET was tentatively scheduled for next Wednesday. The RE who did my ultrasound this morning said things looked "perfect," but when my RE called with the blood results, she said my progesterone was high enough to indicate that I ovulated through my meds. The cycle is cancelled. We have to start over.
I knew there was a slight possibility of this happening. I was just on estrogen pills, and some REs also use Lupron for FET cycles because it suppresses your system more. My RE told me that women only ovulate through the estrogen 2 percent of the time, so they don't like to put them on Lupron when it probably isn't necessary. I feel like if there is a way to fall on the bad side of good odds, my body will find a way to do it. Obviously, I will be taking Lupron this time around. I start it Wednesday, then start estrogen again when I get my period, then proceed from there. Our transfer will now be in about 5 weeks.
I did not handle this news well. I totally lost it in front of my boss and coworker. 20 months of trying to get pregnant and counting, 9 failed IUIs, lots of hormones, 1 miscarriage, and I have never cried at work until today. The worst part is that this is the first cycle I felt really positive about. I'm a pessimist by nature, but I'm on Prozac and I've been doing guided meditations and have been feeling confident and optimistic. Now I feel like negativity was a better way to go. At least it seemed less disappointing when I expected the worst.
In the grand scheme of things, this is not a big deal. It is a one month delay. We still have 5 frosties. I'm still under 35. But I am tired of waiting, and I am tired of disappointment, and tired of things going wrong. I am exhausted.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Married my wife 8/2007 ~ TTC #1 since 7/2011
9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w5d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14