I know I sound like and am the worst person in the world by saying this. I love my baby dearly but I absolutely hate being a mother. I wish my life could go back to the way it was before I got pregnant. I never envisioned myself being a mom and having kids because I always believed I would be terrible at it. Now I have this absolutely beautiful 2mo little boy and I feel like I'm screwing his life up. I finally tried to talk to my husband about it and he went off on me telling me I need to figure out what it is I need to make me happy because he's sick of my mopey behavior. He has waited so long to be a daddy and he doesn't understand why I'm having so many problems with something so simple. I wish I never told him how I feel but if I can't tell him then who am I supposed to go to?
Please no brash or rude comments I feel bad enough already. I just need to know if anyone else out there can give me some words of advice if they ever felt the same way. :,
To my little one - may God hold you in his arms until we are able to hold you in ours.