I have to say that here lately I have been in "feel sorry for myself" mode. I've just been so down about feeling like I'm in this predicament of not knowing what to do - my AMH is undetectable, my hormones are crazy, my cycles are whack, I keep having mood swings and night sweats...and I feel terrible about my weight/body. I think my hormonal issues are contributing to having a hard time losing weight. I feel like I'm going into menopause and probably need to have another kid if I am going to...and I do want another one. Yet, I can logically say now is probably not the greatest time for another baby. However, I also can't get overly excited about dumping a bunch of money into IVF and freezing eggs, etc. (not to mention the physical/emotional aspect of it) when all of that is is a big "maybe" given my numbers, the fact that even if I could get some embryos who knows if they would make the thaw in a few years, etc.
Well, today, after spending some time on my the board I found on Fragile X on facebook, I don't feel so bad for myself anymore. How does the saying go? "I felt sorry for myself because I had no shoes, until I met a man who had no feet."
I realized that I have an awful lot to be thankful for. I have a son...a son who seems to be healthy. Maybe I won't get to have another baby. That makes me sad. But I still have an awful lot be happy about.