Working Moms

Tomorrow

Well. 12 months of mat leave have gone by just like that. How I have no freakin clue. It's mostly all a blur.
The anticipation of going back to work has maximized to its fullest and has seriously gotten the best of me. I'm full of worry, anxiety, sadness, sometimes excitement about a new chapter then back to full force nobody knows how to take care of dd like me just Downright in the dumps feel sorry for myself. How will I retrain my brain to work mode? Lol

I have no idea why or what exactly brought this on. But I'm really hoping ill make it through tomorrow and this week with a positive outlook. I think it's one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. Who would have thought. Wish me luck.
Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

Re: Tomorrow

  • Oh how I remember bring just where you are a few months ago. My heart hurts for you. It's tough but you'll get through it. The first few weeks are the hardest for sure. Make friends with other moms in your office and go to them for support. Good luck!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker Image and video hosting by TinyPic
  • I have to go back to work tomorrow, too, but I've only been off for 7 weeks. I'd imagine the longer you get to stay home with LO the harder it would be to go back to work. I'll be thinking of you and wish you a happy first day!
  • How's your first day going? I have been in the office for about three hours now and haven't had a meltdown so I am positive about that. I have gotten a bit teary eyed especially when I called my MIL to check on DD. Sounded like things were going well, which made me feel a lot better. But it also made me sad that I wasn't there playing with her. Oh well - not much I can do about it.

    I cried a bunch last night and thought I would in the car on the way to work this morning but I was able to hold it together. I chatted with some co-workers for a while and that put me in better spirits. I don't really have a choice in working or not so I am trying not to dwell on it too much. As soon as I get home tonight I will exclusively pay attention to DD and then do it all again tomorrow and the next day. Deep breath - stay positive and focus on the task at hand. GL!

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    image

     

  • Another thing I am trying to do at work to keep myself going is focusing on some me time. My work is project based and I don't have a project to work on just yet so I have a bit of extra time. Therefore, I am walking the stairs every hour. This only takes a few minutes (I work in a 6-story building) and it makes me feel better about myself since I probably won't have time to exercise at home until we get a good routine going. Also, I am focusing on my water intake. When I was at home with DD  I barely drank much water and was really eating whatever. So I packed some healthy snacks and and am trying to drink way more water. I think doing these things will give me something else to think about and make me a happier/healthier mom.

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    image

     

  • Wow. You and I are so much alike. I too was trying to focus on my water consumption and just on me time. Last night was a disaster. Dd is all of a sudden a major picky dinner eater and she refused like everything but bread and I was stressed to the max because I was trying to prepare meal options. I was in meetings all day so I wasn't able to call MIL but dh did and she was fine.

    Overall, I'm pretty surprised on how it turned out. I'm on my way home to get dd now and I am so excited. I never shed a tear all day and didn't have much anxiety. I'm so surprised. Maybe it was being inside all the time and being on such a repetitive routine. I was preparing for much worse but let's see what tomorrow brings.

    Im glad yours went well too. Keep me posted!!!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • So happy your day went well! I am at the office now (day 2) and no tears. Just gonna focus on work and looking for a new job (I just made a post about looking for a new one b/c they are going to make me travel a lot for my current job). I did get really sad when I came home to DD yesterday. I think I may have held in too much and was just overwhelmed when I came home. I held it in though...I have cried in front of her before and then she starts crying. Lucky for me, we are expecting snow here so I will probably leave work early today and work from home tomorrow. It will be a nice break during the week! Hope your day 2 goes just as well as your day 1.

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    image

     

  • I just read your new post. That's too bad especially with your transition. I hope it works out for you. I too just started a new job after mat leave and was so nervous about it. I'm very happy I did. I was at my old job for 7 years and happy I didn't go back.

    I was sad last night too. Esp with trying to be with dd, trying to prepare both dinner and foods for tomorrow and trying to relax with dh. I did get it all done but was sad that I didn't get enough time with dd. that makes me sad and I don't want her to forget about me. Lol. Or have MIL know her routine better than me. Call me stubborn but I wanna be in charge of that. I just called on my lunch break, and did get teary hearing her in the background. I didn't have time to call yesterday. I sucked it up. Maybe I should t call.
    I hope you're doing well too. Is it Friday yet??????
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • image silvie25:
    I just read your new post. That's too bad especially with your transition. I hope it works out for you. I too just started a new job after mat leave and was so nervous about it. I'm very happy I did. I was at my old job for 7 years and happy I didn't go back. I was sad last night too. Esp with trying to be with dd, trying to prepare both dinner and foods for tomorrow and trying to relax with dh. I did get it all done but was sad that I didn't get enough time with dd. that makes me sad and I don't want her to forget about me. Lol. Or have MIL know her routine better than me. Call me stubborn but I wanna be in charge of that. I just called on my lunch break, and did get teary hearing her in the background. I didn't have time to call yesterday. I sucked it up. Maybe I should t call. I hope you're doing well too. Is it Friday yet??????

    I ended up calling twice yesterday and got a little teary both times. So today I decided to not call. I think my MIL has it under control and I don't want to get upset. She will call me if she needs something. Luckily, my MIL made dinner last night so I didn't have to worry about that. Not sure what I am going to do when she leaves in 3 months. I agree that I like having control over her schedule as well. MIL told me that DD sleeps more with her b/c she is not as active with her and she is bored. But she said that DD doesn't cry as much either. It was kind of weird how she put it but DH said that the activity and game playing will be our thing and she can be the boring grandma. I was getting concerned about lack of activity but she will be going to daycare in 3 months and I am sure she will get plenty of stimulation then. Also, I don't think MIL does tummy time with her but I am not gonna push it right now. I can't wait for the weekend!!!

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    image

     

  • Hmm. It's hard for me to remember what dd was up to at that age. She's 11 months now and I'm more worried about more activity time and less dora. I think at your lo's age they should be fine with sleeping still and not have constant stimulation. How about books ? My dd loves them, but I think I started around 6 mos.
    I get verrrrry anxious if my schedule isn't followed. I guess I'm going to have to learn to let go of that. You too I guess. I think I remember you said there was a language barrier with MIL?
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
This discussion has been closed.
Choose Another Board
Search Boards