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**Ticker warning** Another loss

So it seems that now is not the time for me to have my rainbow.  I miscarried over the weekend at 5 weeks, 4 days.  I have deleted my ticker and saved my signature numerous times, I can't stand that TB is still showing it.  I really don't feel the need to go to the miscarriage board, this loss is upsetting but it's nothing compared to the devestation in losing Ava.  If it's ok with you ladies, I would like to just hang out here.  This loss just made me so much more angry.  I'm angry about how I shouldn't even be going through another loss because Ava is supposed to be here next week.  I miss my baby girl and the only hope I had to start focusing on something positive is now gone too.  I'm just so frustrated with my body, with life, and I feel like I've been in a constant nightmare since October.  I'm hoping to get some answers on what's going on with me.  For now, all I can do is take one day at a time. : *(
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BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.

BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.

BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.

BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section

Re: **Ticker warning** Another loss

  • I'm so sorry ((hugs))

    TTC since August 2011
    DX PCOS and annovulatory
    1/12 Clomid (3 rounds total and no response)
    DH SA = normal
    6/12 Femara (2 rounds)no response
    8/12 1st round Gonal F and 2 follies = BFN
    9/12 2nd round injects and 3 follies = BFP!
    10/15 11dpo beta#1 = 162 10/17 beta #2 = 471 1st U/S: Quads!!!
    1/13 Baby A ruptured membranes, our angels Jaxon, Jayse, Emersyn, and Ellee were born @ 17 weeks
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    5/13 Gonal F with 1 follie - BFP! EDD - 2/11/14

     

  • Oh I am just so sorry you are going through this. I recently went through a similar loss, and had all the same feeling you are describing. It was upsetting and made me so angry and I missed my daughter even more.
    I am also looking for answers and its so frustrating, my body is failing me.
    It really shouldn't be this hard, I am so sorry.
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    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
  • I am so, so sorry.  I have no words.  Just sorry.  {{HUGS}}

     

    In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be

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  • Oh no! I'm so so sorry you're going through this. It's just so unfair. Huge ((hugs))

    Jillian Rose- born 8/26/12 at 24 weeks. "It broke my heart to lose you but you didn't go alone, for a part of me went with you, the day God took you home"
    I love you always, my beautiful girl.

    Hysteroscopy 3/1/13 Dx: Unicornuate uterus

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    BFP 3/18/13- Please be our Rainbow, we love you so much already.

    6/4/13-Found out we're having a BOY!!

    10/30/13-He's here!! Happy Birthday, Ryan! We love you so much! xo

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  • Oh Meli, I'm so sorry :( I recently went through an early loss and have been struggling a bit. It took longer than I ever expected to get that BFP, then as quickly as we found out, I miscarried. I understand the frustration of it all.

    (((HUGE HUGS))) as you approach Ava's due date.

    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13

    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • Oh Meli I am so sorry. This is just not fair. Hugs to you.
  • I am so sorry you are going through this!! Hugs!!
    DS- Brenden born 11/13/93 Missed miscarriage on March 6, 2007 @ 9 weeks D&C on March 8th 2007. Riley Annalise born 2/25/08 ( 3 weeks early weighing 8 lbs 12.8 oz.) Chemical pregnancy 3/2010. Sydney Adriana born sleeping on 9/30/11 weighing 10lbs 3 oz at 38wks 4 days. Trinity Alivia born via c section at 36 wks 4 days weighing 9 lbs. 5.7 oz. She is our amazing rainbow baby!!! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie First Birthday tickers PGAL buddy drvst8
  • I am so very sorry ((Hugs))
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  • Absolutely unfair - I'm so, so sorry. I have no other words but send lots of hugs.
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  • I am so very sorry Meli. It is so unfair, and you are perfectly allowed to be angry. I remember someone saying to me that it's okay to be mad at the universe, it can take it! Take care of yourself, and let yourself be taken care of by those who love you. ((HUGS))
  • I had a miscarriage in October.  It's funny.  While I don't want to slight anyone who has a miscarriage, it's such a different feeling than what we've already been through.  While it hurt, it was really just insult to injury for me.  I understand your feelings of frustration.  Hang in there though...we're here for you.
  • I've lost two babies in a row, a natural MC in April at 6 weeks, and just this past weekend at 18w6d due to a terminal diagnosis.  It's just a slap in the face.  I know they aren't related in any way, but I know it will make my next pregnancy that much more difficult to get through.

    TB ticker issue is like pouring salt into my already bleeding heart.  I immediately changed my ticker last friday so I don't have to see that stupid piece of fruit get bigger every week.  I've gone back numerous times and it's "saved" correctly, TB just still shows the them.  

     

    BFP#1 on 7.1.10 ~ Little Miss M born on 3.3.11 BFP#2 on 4.7.12 ~ EDD 12.17.12 ~ natural MC at 6w3d BFP#3 in 11.5.12 ~ EDD 6.29.13 ~ angel baby lost at 18w6d due to terminal diagnosis
  • Thanks everyone, I'm so glad I have you all for support. Helmet - I am so incredibly sorry for your losses. This is a great group of women here, we will all help each other through.
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    BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.

    BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.

    BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.

    BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section

  • So very sorry! Hugs to you!
    Lilypie - (qptF)


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    "Elsie Irene was born sleeping at 35w 6d on December 8, 2012. Mommy and Daddy miss you sweet girl."


  • Meli, I am so incredibly sorry! That absolutely sucks. Hugs

    Thinking of you!

    We've been having some rotten luck on this board lately.
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  • Hugs

    I know that the Universe is testing us to the limits but we need to stay strong! We have no other choice but believe that there will be a better tomorrow.

  • Meli,

    I am so sorry.

    HUGS

    TTC #1 since 10/2010 RE consult 6/2011 PCOS (known) MFI IVF #1 w/ICSI 2/2012 BFP TRIPLETS our angels grew wings at 19.5 weeks 6.25.12 IVF #2 2/2013 Sono shows tissue Hysteroscopy needed Changing RE www.chasingstarsisbettertogether.com Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers ~~~all welcome~~~
  • I am so, so sorry to hear this, Meli
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  • I posted on TTCAL, but I wanted to say it here too. I am so, so sorry. I also had a later loss followed by an early miscarriage. It is so unfair and horrible. It also just made me miss my son that much more. Huge hugs to you. 


    "Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart"


    BFP#1: EDD 10/19/2007 DD born 9/26/07 at 36 weeks due to PIH and Pre-E

    BFP#2- EDD 12/23/2012 DS born 7/16/12 at 17 weeks due to PPROM and placental abruption
    You will be in my heart forever sweet boy

    BFP#3: EDD 7/30/12 MMC at 7 weeks, 2 days, D&C 12/14/12
    BFP #4: 6/29/13- EDD 3/10/2014 DS born 2/22/2014
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    We've been having some rotten luck on this board lately.

    You could say that again! Hugs all around.
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    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
  • I'm so sorry. That is just so not fair at all. No one deserves this but we especially do not deserve this. I'm so sorry this happened. Hugs to you.
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  • I'm so sorry, Meli. It's just so unfair. Hugs, sweetie.

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  • I saw your post on PGAL when I was lurking and it broke my heart.  I can't imagine the pain of going thru this after what you already went thru with Ava.  ((HUGS)). 

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    5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

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  • Oh Meli, I'm so sorry. As soon as I saw the message header, my heart sunk. I have no other words...Crying
    2012-09-27 04.34.29 2012-09-27 05.42.41 2012-09-28 13.20.43 Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
  • I'm so sorry :(
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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