First, I feel numb, I can barely cry. I feel sad and dissappointed.
When I think about trying again, I feel so mixed. I have a wonderful DD. It took almost a year to conceive her and 18 months to conceive this one.
Now, I just wonder if its better for me to stop trying.
Its probably too soon to be contemplating all of these what-ifs but no matter how much I try to distract myself and focus on DD or my job, I keep dwelling on this loss and how this may be it for us.