Don't really know how to put this it sounds so selfish. My husband and I lost our baby on the 27th obviously we had made the announcement at Christmas (surprised our parents with presents making the announcement) Well after I told my family my sister told me that my cousin was pregnant too. We announced it together to our extended family that night. We were due 4 days apart... I'm really trying to be happy and excited for her (it is her first) but all I can really feel is jealous and angry, not angry at her just that she gets her baby (God willing) and I don't. I know that it's not my fault and I couldn't have prevented it but God it is so hard sometimes. I have a follow up appointment today so see how my body is handling things and if I need a D&C or not. Maybe that's why I'm melting down again. I just hope the doc has some good news, don't know if I could handle anything else bad right now. I want this to be over and I know it never will be completely.