There are no real words I can say to explain how I am feeling right now. At 6w4d we saw a strong heartbeat and this morning, just one day shy of 9w, nothing was there. The baby was just gone! No answers yet. Had to go give blood and now back to the waiting game. Seems like this whole process has just been unanswered mysteries and it is getting more and more difficult to understand. Right now is not the time for me to think about the next step but I am just terrified to go down this road again, all the appointments, shots, long waits, dashed hopes. Throwing myself a pity party at the moment, sorry!
Me = 32 husband = 35 Married 6/27/2009 Together since 10/22/2005 TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009)
Unexplained Infertility, single mild copy of MTHFR. primary lymphedema in my right leg
8/2011, 1/2012, 3/2012 IUI #1-3 BFN
6/2012 IVF#1 BFN, 8/2012 IVF#2 FET BFN, 11/2012 IVF#3 BFP
12/10/2012 U/S #1 6w4d - baby with heartbeat EDD 8/1/13
12/26/2012 U/S #2 8w6d - No heartbeat, only measured 6 weeks, dx mmc
12/28/2012 D&C; Chromosome testing normal; male :( RPL testing normal
4/3/2013 SIS showed Asherman's Syndrome caused by D&C (scar tissue)
4/4/2013 Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue
June 2013 IVF #4 planned
5/12/2013 SURPRISE BFP! Natural cycle
7/11/2013 Panorama results Normal!!! Team Pink, partial previa 1st trimester; moved up in 2nd trimester
7/23/2013 Great NT scan = great bday!
9/5/13 AS scan looks great except for short cervix, 2.5 cm 9/19 Cervix even shorter, 1.87-2.05cm, bed rest for remainder of pregnancy 9/26 Bed rest helping, cervix back up 2.15-2.3cm. 10/3 cervix 2.37cm 10/17 slight funneling 1.9cm 10/26 & 10/27 steroid shots for baby's lungs. 11/21 Cervix 1.8cm FFN test negative