I am going to be honest and judge me if you want. What I am about to say is going to make some people think I am a terrible mother. I am to the point that most days I cant stand to be around DD. Her digestive issues and constant crying make it so hard to enjoy her. If sbe is not eating, she is spitting it up all over the place every 5 minutes. She is either constipated or has diareah. She has never had a normal poop. She doesnt take naps but for 10 minutes at a time. Forget about bed time...that has been a nightmare too. She wont sit in the swing od bouncer, spits out the pacifier every time and has busted oht of the swaddle everytime. Getting oht of the house results in blood curdling screeming. I a mm embarrassed to go shopping with her because of the crying.
I am out of patience and so tired of the difficulty with DD. I went back to work last week and when I dropped her off atmy moms, I didnt even say good bye. Worse yet it w as two days back before I realized I never called once to see how she was. Part of me was relieved to be away from her and the hassles. Here is the worst part... after rtwo months, I still feel no connection to her. I am sure I should have posted this on the depression board but I just need to get it out. I feel terrible that I am having such a hard time. I dont hate DD, I hate what her problemsn have caused me ro feel.