We are driving home now. 3 hours is a lot of time to think about the couldhavebeens. I was doing okay. Until we started driving home for Christmas.
I should be over 5 months along now. We should be going tomorrow to tell everyone whether it's a boy or a girl. Instead we are going and I'm praying that I'm pregnant right now and will get my BFP later this week. But I'm doubting it. I'm just suddenly deeply sad again. I hope I can get through tomorrow.
I know I'm not the only one having a tough time this time of year. It's just my first Christmas and first family function on my side since my loss. Last time I saw these people I had just gotten my positive test and was secretly thrilled.
Hugs to us all!
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #1 8/25/12 EDD 4/28/13 Blighted Ovum, D&C 9/20/12 at 8w6d. I'll always remember the first one. My baby Grace.
BFP #2 12/26/12 EDD 9/5/13 Come on, rainbow baby!