Big vent here, i'm sorry but I just need to get it out. I'm a FTM and reality of me having a baby is really kicking in and i'm getting super nervous. I'm so tired, so exhausted, as I know that pretty much all of you are! My husband is still in school, he was supposed to be done a week ago, and have his business degree. Well that didn't happen...He had 2 classes one of them had a huge final project that he had to do with a group. Well basically he was the only one in his group that tried and his group ended up bailing on him because it was too much work, so he failed that class. Meaning he'd have to do it again next year...You could imagine the devastation we both had. We just found out this morning, that he failed his other class too, by 2%!!!...bring on the tears!
How could this happen? He worked so hard! he was so busy, he was gone in school till 11pm on days, during my pregnancy, that I needed him the most! Now he has 2 courses to take next year, 2 of the most hardest, most busiest courses of his degree. This wasn't supposed to happen! He was going to graduate with his degree right before christmas and then welcome our first baby a month later....more tears...
Now in 2 weeks, he's going to be going back to school, a school thats over an hour away from home. I'm just about 35 weeks, he'll start school when i'm 37...I'll be sitting at home, alone, just wanting him but I won't be able to have him! What if I go into labor and he's an hour away (I know, babies don't come that fast) but i'll still want him to be around when i'm having contractions and in pain.
I HATE THIS!!!!
my parents are gone to visit my sister (12hrs away) because she just had a baby. I need my mom, she's my best friend and always let me just cry when I need to get it out. I've got 4 different christmas dinners with my husbands family (who just DRIVE ME NUTS!) this week..I'm trying to hard to be strong for my husband, but now i've got no one to turn too..
I dno what to do...Merry christmas to me...ugh
thanks for listening to me whine..