Sorry I have been posting quite a bunch of posts lately but things have just been hard lately for me between the feeding every three hours, the attempting (and usually failing) breast feeding, and the constant worrying about my preemie daughter. I can't believe in 4 days she will be a month old. The things is, I am a member of January 2013 group on TB and on FB. I don't know if this is normal for me to be feeling this way or if I have postpartum or something but I just get like extremely jealous of other pregnant people and it makes me sad. I feel like I should still be pregnant (and I should) and it really hurts me that I couldn't carry her all the way to term. Like it really hurts. I feel like I missed out on the third trimester. And it hurts that all of my friends have carried to term and had perfectly healthy babies. It's just hard to have a preemie and it has put a lot of stress on my family. I love her, don't get me wrong, I just hate feeling so sad. Have you guys been through this?
Married my best friend September 4, 2011