If anyone is interested, here's a link to my birth story over on PAL:
The birth wasn't as emotional as I expected, even though I delivered in the same hospital where Nathaniel was born/died. I suppose maybe because I have spent so much time there since. The experience was simply...joyful. There were definitely many moments when I thought of him and felt sad but for the most part, there just wasn't much time to dwell in sadness.
Since coming home, I have definitely had my emotional moments. I haven't much time to grieve him, which of course makes me feel guilty. Maybe the big emotions are coming later? I don't know.
I do know that I wish somehow I could have kept both of my babies. But that's not my reality. So I will love this little miracle with all of my heart, and try to cherish her enough for the both of them.