I know several of you have seen my update on PG>35, but I just wanted to update over here, and also say thank you for all of the support and thoughts and prayers.
Unfortunately we did not see a heartbeat at our last ultrasound on Wednesday, and the baby had not grown since the week before. I was anxious about this week's ultrasound because even though we had seen the fetal pole the week before, it seemed to be measuring small. I really wish I hadn't been right.
I had a D&C yesterday morning. I haven't really cried much yet, a little bit here and there, but I am hoping that it will hit me soon and I can get it all out, and begin to move forward. I can't really put into words how I feel, there are a lot of things circling around in my head.
We are supposed to go to my aunt's house tonight for a Christmas party with extended family. If we had seen a heartbeat this week, we would have announced to the family tonight. Now I am thinking I really don't feel up to going, I don't want it to be a situation where I walk in and then feel like I need to turn around and walk out.
I don't know where we are or what our next steps will be, but I hope to be joining you back here in the next couple of months. I'm still lurking and I wish you all the very best of luck and a great holiday.