TTC after 35

Update

I know several of you have seen my update on PG>35,  but I just wanted to update over here, and also say thank you for all of the support and thoughts and prayers.

Unfortunately we did not see a heartbeat at our last ultrasound on Wednesday, and the baby had not grown since the week before. I was anxious about this week's ultrasound because even though we had seen the fetal pole the week before, it seemed to be measuring small.  I really wish I hadn't been right.

I had a D&C yesterday morning.  I haven't really cried much yet, a little bit here and there, but I am hoping that it will hit me soon and I can get it all out, and begin to move forward.  I can't really put into words how I feel, there are a lot of things circling around in my head.

We are supposed to go to my aunt's house tonight for a Christmas party with extended family. If we had seen a heartbeat this week, we would have announced to the family tonight. Now I am thinking I really don't feel up to going, I don't want it to be a situation where I walk in and then feel like I need to turn around and walk out. 

I don't know where we are or what our next steps will be, but I hope to be joining you back here in the next couple of months. I'm still lurking and I wish you all the very best of luck and a great holiday.


TTC since 3/2010. Me 41, DH-49. After 3 years, 6 IUIs and several IVFs we have finally have our beautiful baby girl, born on 11/7/13.



Re: Update

  • Thoughts and prayers... how heartbreaking.

    Take care and be good to yourself. 

  • (((((HUGS)))) I am so sorry for this, I have no words to say, other than I am truly sorry and am sending you strength to get through this tough time, made tougher for the holidays.....T&P are with you.

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    Me: 41 DH: 46. We are TTC our 1st, started July '11,
    3 cycles clomid with Ob,
    1 cycle Tamoxifen with Ob,
    Diagnosed PCOS 11/5/12
    clomid, trigger & timed bd 12/12 BFN
    1st clomid IUI 1/4/13 BFN.
    2nd clomid IUI 2/13 cancelled didn't respond to clomid.
    3/15/13 scheduled laparoscopy & on bcp.

    May 10 IUI from injectibles - BFN 

    May 22 done with interventions it will either happen or it won't. 

    February 2014 No longer actively trying, but not preventing. 

     

  • Big hugs Irishgirl.  I think you should skip the party if you're not up for it.  Taking care of yourself is the priority now.
    Me-41, Hubby-40.
    1st BFP-8/17/12!  Missed Miscarriage discovered @ 8 week US.  D&C.
    2nd BFP-2/13/13!  Blighted Ovum discovered @ 8 week US. Natural miscarriage.
    3rd BFP-5/22/13!  By early June, progesterone plummeting.  Another loss.
    August 2013 - started Donor Egg process, but surprise BFP with my own eggs.
    Dear Son born 5/28/14
  • Continued hugs my friend. I know it sounds strange but I hope the tears find you soon but definitely not at the party tonight. 

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! EDD 12/2/14

    MFM will induce or schedule C/S by week 37-38= 11/12/14 to 11/19/14br>
    We are Team Pink x 2!!!

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  • I said it on PG>35 as well but wanted to say again how sorry I am, and that I feel for you how much it sucks that you have to go through this over the holidays, or ever for that matter.  We're here for you when you come back again.



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    Me: 40. DH: 42. TTC since 2009. 
    Normal-ish hormone levels (<9.5 FSH, 0.9 AMH).  Weird egg maturity issue.
    July 2011 - Feb. 2012: 2 Clomid/TI cycles; 3 injectables/IUI cycles. Good response but BFNs.
    Dec. 2011: Laparoscopy (clear) + hysteroscopy to remove uterine polyp.
    Apr. 2012: IVF #1: Antagonist protocol. 7R, 0M, 0F. :-(
    Nov. 2012: IVF #2: Long Lupron protocol. 9R, 1M, 1F. 3dt of my one lil' embie on 11/23: BFN. :-(
    Dec. 2012: Hail Mary IUI cycle with leftover IVF meds: BFN.
    Feb. 2013: IVF #3: Estrogen priming protocol, max stims. 6R, 1M, 1F w/rescue ICSI. My one embie didn't make it. :-(
    July 2013:  DE IVF #1. Canceled just before retrieval when donor tested positive for (active) CMV.  :-(
    Oct. 2013:  DE IVF #2, with wonderful new donor. ER 10/25:  31R, 24F. 5dt of one beautiful 4AB blast: 10/30. 14 frosties. BFP at 5dp5dt. Beta 11/8 (9dp5dt): 179. Beta 11/15 (16dp5dt): 2274. First US 11/25 (6w3d): a perfect little bean with a HB of 118. Second US 12/9 (8w3d): HB 170. Anatomy scan 2/27:  It's a GIRL!  Beautiful DD born 7/24/2014 weighing 8lb 15oz.  100% worth it all.  

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  • I am so very sorry.. I think you need to focus on yourself tonight and if that means skipping the party, then you should.  You never know when the tears are going to hit you and better you be home where you can really let go.  :( 
    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
  • I replied on the other board too, but wanted to say again how sad I am for you. Hugs.

    Always missing my Mommy (1954-2010) and Daddy (1943-2012)
    TTC since 2009 ; BFP 9/13/10 = MC 10/21/10
    DX = DOR/POA (AMH=1.1; AFC=4-5)
    Surprise BFP 8/31/11 while waiting to cycle for IVF
    Welcomed our little miracle 5/7/12
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  • I am so sorry to hear this news. Sending hugs your way...
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    Me 42, DH 34 - TTC #1 since June 2012.
    9/12 3-day testing: TSH 3.76, T4 Free 1.1, LH 6.1, FSH 7.4, Prolactin 9.0, Estradiol 56. 12/12 HSG done & my tubes are clear!! 1/22/13 3-day testing: TSH 6.2, FSH 7.7, AMH 0.86, Estradiol 54, Prolactin 10.5. Thyroid almost doubled (hmmm), started Synthroid 2/4/13 and also 15,000 of Vit D 1/wk. 2/26/13 RE says I am in great shape, but DH has MFI - extremly low count along with morphology & motility issues. RE said IUI would be a waste, that IVF with ICSI is what he thinks we should do. Insurance does not cover IVF.... :(
  • I'm so sorry for your loss, I would stay home and give yourself some time.
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  • Oh Irishgirl, big, big, hugs to you. I wish you peace and comfort. I can imagine the shock of feeling finally so excited now this. You are not alone. We are here for you. Hugs!!!
  • I am so sorry for your loss.  I have you and your husband in my thoughts and prayers.  Wishing you strength to get through this tuff time.  ((Hugs))

     

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  • Im so sorry Irish. My heart is so broken for you. Hugs
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Daisypath Anniversary tickers image Me - 41 DH - 28 **** Proud mom to Christopher, dob 7/15/92 **** Nathaniel dob 1/18/05 -1/18/05 (8 mos) in heaven **** bfp 8/26/10 m/c 10/14/10 at 7 wks. **** D&C 10/15/10 **** Cycles 1-4 BFN's **** Cycle #5 - 100 mg Clomid **** IUI #1 - 04/23/11 and 4/24/11 - 5/8/11 IUI #1 = BFFN BFP 10/14/11 - EDD 6/22/12** Stick little one Stick! Athena Jane 5/31/12 - 8/28/12
  • So sorry Irish, hoping that the tears will find you when you need them.  Sending big (((hugs))) and T & P your way.
    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
  • I saw the post on the other board and was shocked. Sending you some big hugs as you go through this difficult time during the holidays. Take care and we are all here for you.

    ME:46 MH:43 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957


     

     

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  • Thank you ladies. I decided not to go to the party tonight. I know my cousin will be there with her 6 month old and even though I haven't seen him yet, I think it's better if I just meet him another time.

     

    TTC since 3/2010. Me 41, DH-49. After 3 years, 6 IUIs and several IVFs we have finally have our beautiful baby girl, born on 11/7/13.



  • I'm really sorry for your loss. I'm glad you made the best choice for yourself in regards to the party.

    Take care. 

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  • I am so incredibly sorry. My heart breaks for you. My prayers are with you and your husband.
    ? TTC#1 since 2/10 ?

    DX: Me - Slight androgen PCOS Him: Mild MFI Official DX: Unexplained IF

    2/11 - 8/11 - 6 cycles Femara (5mg) + TI = BFNs

    2/12 - 5/12 - Femara(5mg) + IUI = BFNs

    6/12 and 8/12 - Femara (7.5mg) + IUI = BFN :( - considered IUI#3 and 4 by RE

    9/12 and 12/12 - Femara (7.5mg for 3 days) + Ovidrel + IUI = BFN

    After 8 unsuccessful IUIs and no explanation for IF, moving on to IVF Feb. 2013.

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  • image irishgirl0525:
    Thank you ladies. I decided not to go to the party tonight. I know my cousin will be there with her 6 month old and even though I haven't seen him yet, I think it's better if I just meet him another time. nbsp;


    Take all the time you need.
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Daisypath Anniversary tickers image Me - 41 DH - 28 **** Proud mom to Christopher, dob 7/15/92 **** Nathaniel dob 1/18/05 -1/18/05 (8 mos) in heaven **** bfp 8/26/10 m/c 10/14/10 at 7 wks. **** D&C 10/15/10 **** Cycles 1-4 BFN's **** Cycle #5 - 100 mg Clomid **** IUI #1 - 04/23/11 and 4/24/11 - 5/8/11 IUI #1 = BFFN BFP 10/14/11 - EDD 6/22/12** Stick little one Stick! Athena Jane 5/31/12 - 8/28/12
  • I am so, so sorry. You are in my thoughts.
    "Don't look back, you can never look back." - Don Henley
  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  I'm glad that you were able to take care of yourself and avoid your aunt's party.  I hope you continue to make yourself a priority during the holidays.  (((big, big hugs)))

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    TTC since Jan 2011,

    5 IUIs from January to October 2012 = all BFN

    IVF #1, ER scheduled for mid-December

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  • Oh Irishgirl, I am so sad to hear this.  I hope you are able to have a good cry (or many) and find the strength to move on...it must be so incredibly hard to do.  I'm sure it was a good idea to skip the party to take time for yourself.
    Me:38 Dh:36 TTC since Oct. 2010


    Jan 2012 Clomid without procedure = BFN

    Feb 2012 Found cyst during US, then first IUI without med = BFN

    April 2012 Laparoscopy for chocolate cyst and mod/severe endo removal

    June 2012 Clomid and IUI#2 = BFN

    July 2012 Clomid and IUI#3 = BFN

    September Menopur + Pregnyl + IUI = BFN

    November Menopur + Pregnyl + IUI = BFN

    #1 IVF in January with microdose flare protocol

    12/26 Started BCPs. 1/11 Start Lupron/Menogon/Puregon

    1/22 Trigger shot 1/24 ER 1/29 Embryo Transfer

    2/7 Beta#1 274 2/9 Beta#2 876 2/26 Ultrasound = Two heartbeats!!!


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  • I am so sorry! 
    Photobucket Me:36 DH: 34 TTC since 02/2012, not preventing since 2010. Me: testing came back good. DH: dx: MIF low count/motility. RE recommends IVF with ICSI. Update: DH just diagnosed with severe Crohn's disease, so any IF treatment is on hold :(
  • I am so terribly terribly sorry to hear this.  My heart just aches for you!  I wish there was something that anyone could do.  You're in my thoughts and prayers... loss after IF is extra, extra cruel.  :'(
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