Hello ladies. To this point I have been more of a lurker on this board.
This is my 3rd child. My first two my water broke early on (2cm) I went straight to the hospital (I was young and did not have the knowledge I have now) and they instantly started me on pitocin. So my labor went from very light contractions to VERY extreme quickly. With my first I was hoping to go Epidural free and after 46 hours on pitocin and still being dilated to 2cm I gave in and took the drugs.....she was born 1 hours later and with both girls literally 2 pushes and they were out. Similar story with my 2nd. (my girls are now 9 & 13)
This time DH and I are taking Bradley classes. I am hoping to labor at home as much as I can before I go into the hospital and stay OFF of pitocin. That stuff scares the crap out of me. Well last night I could not sleep I kept dreaming I was in transition ALL NIGHT. I kept dreaming that because I was in labor so long they did an emergency c-section.,,,,or once I hit pushing I couldn't get past that ring of fire and ended up with a c-section.....or that I begged for the epidural and my husband kept telling them no because I was progressing (that is our agreement or at least what I am looking at, as long as I am progressing I want to stay off any drugs). Well I woke up this morning and started bawling my eyes out of all of my fears and etc. DH was wonderful and just sat there and listened to me and told me he loved me and that I would make it though this no matter what......but I am still scared/freaked out. I really DO NOT want an epidural for multiple reasons but I am so afraid I will not be able to make it through this with out wussing out. The birth will be in a hospital and no I do not have a Douala (we do not have the extra 650.00 for her, we need it for when I am on maternity leave).
Sorry this is so long and thank you ladies for listening to me.
You do not have to read past this if you do not want to. My reasons for not wanting an epidural:
I have a horrible headaches that last for almost a month after. Apparently this only affects 1% of women and oh yay I am that 1%.
With DD #2 the guy scraped my spine with the needle and it seriously hurt for almost a year. It also made it very difficult to sleep for months too because my back hurt so bad.
Both babies were out of it when they were born. Natural babies seem to be so alert.
Side effects: shivering, ringing of the ears (which to this day my ears still ring constantly, I have seen a specialist and there is nothing they can do about it)