This morning I've been thinking about my TTC future, which isn't always a good thing. I googled "stage IV endometriosis getting pregnant" to try and find success stories. Most of what I came across were stories of how women got PG a few months after having a lap.
My laparoscopy turned laparotomy was in 2009 and I was advised not to try for a few months (during the time most women are encouraged to try after a laparoscopy) since it was major surgery and my body needed time to heal. So my thinking is that I missed that window of opportunity and then proceeded to feed my endo with Clomid and other fertility meds so now I am probably eaten up with the junk. When I talked to my OBGYN in August he said he would only do another laparoscopy on me as a last resort because he is afraid he would end up having to remove my ovaries and whatever else is being affected by the endo. When I first met with my RE he said he would not do surgery on me and that after reading the surgical report from my OBGYN he feels that an amazing job was done and that I am "lucky to have ovarian function at all". I trust my drs but then I read about how these women went to this or that specialist and they were PG within 3 months. I'm scared of going to a different dr that might be "surgery happy" or underestimate my situation and end up creating a disaster.
Also, I've read in places how endo doesn't affect the outcome of IVF because it bypasses it. Then I read somewhere else how endo does affect implantation because it excretes toxins. Arg! I wish there was a clear cut understanding of endo!
As you can probably tell, from this post and previous ones, I vacillate between feeling all gung-ho about TTC naturally since I've felt less of the endo symptoms while on BCP to worrying that it's not enough and surgery's not an option and IVF is such a big gamble. I'm sorry this is long and jumbled. If nothing else I appreciate your T&Ps.