DH and I went for my u/s this morning hoping to see a heartbeat, but there was nothing, and there was no growth since last week. It doesn't even look like a there is a fetal pole in there anymore, it looks like there is something, but not what they are looking for, and definitely no heartbeat.
The doctor doing the monitoring said that we really should have seen a heartbeat last week, and certainly we should have seen one this morning.
I feel like this is some kind of cruel joke. First we think there are two, then we are told it's only one, and now there are none.
I am at work, but my boss told me to take the day, I just haven't figured out when to leave yet. I kind of want to get some kind of beta confirmation today before I go, but in reality, I know this is done. I was anxious all weekend about this ultra sound today, I guess I had a feeling about this.
Still processing this, I think I need to leave the office and have a good cry. Fortunately my husband is home from work this week so I can hang out with him.
Thank you so much for all of your support, I will still be lurking over here to see how you are all doing, and I hope that I get to join you over here again someday soon. I wish you all the best with your pregnancies and your little ones!