Hi there, I haven't posted on the preemie board before but I was hoping to get some advice or at least maybe commiserate a bit.
Today is my son's 1 month birthday though his due date is tomorrow. He was born at 35 weeks(I was induced for pre-e.)
I delivered him vaginally, but he was born in respiratory distress. They took him away immediately and I didn't get to hold him or touch him or even look at him. He needed to wear a cpap for 4 days and I didnt get to hold him until they took it off and replaced it with a cannula. He was in the nicu a total a two weeks.
So the issue that I am having is even though this was now a whole month ago and I have had him home for 2 weeks and he is healthy and I snuggle with him all the time I can't seem to get over the day he was born. It's just so painful to think about it and remember how I felt when they took him away. I think about it every day and I cry remembering it. My OB said this is normal, but I am so tired of being upset and feeling bitter about the day he was born. So for people who had a similar experience, how long did this last? What can I do to heal??