Hi. I've never posted on any of the loss boards. I guess I've been in denial for the last 6.5 months. I hope it's ok that I post here.
In May, on our 13 cycle, we finally got our BFP. A week later I had a cp. My husband's and my heart was shattered. I made up my mind that we would get pregnant within the 3 months we had left before we had to take a break due to my husband'sjob. Well I fooled myself.
Now with 7ish weeks left until my EDD. I can't seem to shake my sad days. To top it off I work with a girl that is due on that date. I have days where I feel like I'm moving on but then I go back to being so incredibly sad. I've noticed it more lately with the holidays and my due date approaching.
I don't really have anyone to talk to. Communication with DH is really limited and I don't want to have emotional conversations with him being gone. My mom just makes me feel worse even though she means well and I can tell my sisters are uncomfortable when I say anything to them.
Sorry for my rambling. I just wonder if I'll ever not be sad. Thanks for reading... If you made it this far.
TTC#1 Since April 2011
BFP#1 5.23.12 C/P 4w4d
BFP #2 10.1.13
EDD June 10, 2014