I'm pregnant with number two.Labor with number one lasted 40 hours, it required pitocin for half that, my epidural failed, and it involved 3 hours of incredibly painful pushing (and constant charlie horse cramps in both legs). It caused nerve damage to my legs. I couldn't walk without a walker for over a month. That meant if I needed to move anywhere and take the baby (even a diaper change), I had to crawl on my knees. You can imagine how fun that was with the c-section recovery also happening.
I'd love to have a successful VBAC, but, frankly, I can't do what I did last time. It was both physically and psychologically grueling. My body was certain I was going to die and that feeling stuck with me for months. It affected my parenting and would affect my first to see me like that now.
Did anyone have a really awful first labor and a successful VBAC? Was it worth it?