1st Trimester

Goodbye :(

As much fun as I've had on this board, it will be hard to say goodbye. Stupid, worthless husk of my body has betrayed me yet again and left me with nothing. I was getting so excited to announce at Christmas, too. How I wish this pregnancy had stuck. I feel dead inside and very sad. I can't keep on this way I just can't do this anymore. 6 times is too many fricken times I am falling apart at the seams!
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Re: Goodbye :(

  • I'm so sorry for your loss.

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    BFP #1 on 11/13/12 -- EDD 7/24/13 -- M/C (CP) on 11/21/12

    BFP #2 on 07/21/13 -- EDD 3/29/14 -- M/C (CP) on 7/31/13

    Diagnosed with RPL and Unexplained Infertility

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  • I am so sorry for your loss. 


  • 6 times? I hope you are getting yourself checked out to see if there is something that is causing all these miscarriages! Please, when you feel ready, get yourself checked out *before* you try to get pregnant again. And get a second opinion while you are at it. 

    I am very sorry that this has happened to you.   

  • I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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  • I'm so so so very sorry HoopDuck for all of your losses and heartbreak. There is nothing I can say that will take your pain away, but simply that I am thinking you. 
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  • Very sorry for your loss.... I know nothing can make it better but take whatever time you need for yourself to heal. I hope that if you decide to try again, you get your rainbow baby soon.
  • I am so very sorry for your lose

    you will be in my prayers

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  • Wow, I'm so sorry for your loss hoopduck. I wish you all the best, good luck to you.
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  • So sorry. And agree with PP, when you're ready, go get a work up done

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  • I am so very sorry for your loss!

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  • I am so sorry for your loss. ((Hugs)) 

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    BFP#2: 4/2010, DS1 born 12/15/10 
    BFP#3: 1/2/2012, m/c at 12 weeks, EDD 9/12/2012 
    BFP#4: 4/23/2012, m/c at 8 weeks, EDD 12/21/2012
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    6 times? I hope you are getting yourself checked out to see if there is something that is causing all these miscarriages! Please, when you feel ready, get yourself checked out *before* you try to get pregnant again. And get a second opinion while you are at it. 

    I am very sorry that this has happened to you.   

    Are you shitting me!  What a pompous tone to take.  Do you really think your simple minded call for her to get herself checked *before* getting pregnant again is helpful?  Are you just assuming she's never been checked out?  She did lose one tube already and is likely under care.  What an ass you are.

    OP, I am so sorry for your losses and I hope that you are able to take some care of your feelings.  I have never been in your position but my mom was and has talked to me about it.  I was her last try.  I hope you find comfort somehow.

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  • so sorry, - can't imagine the pain and heartbreak of what you are going through.  Praying for you sweetie
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. It is not fair that you are having to experience this heartbreak again and I hope that you get your sticky baby very soon. I pray that you get the comfort, healing and hope that you need to make it thru your grief. I will keep you, your SO and your little ones in my prayers.
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  • I am so, so sorry for you loss. ((HUGS)) It sounds like you've been through so much. It's so unfair that you've had to endure all of this. You'll be in my T&P's & I'm so sad that you're going through this, yet again.
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    6 times? I hope you are getting yourself checked out to see if there is something that is causing all these miscarriages! Please, when you feel ready, get yourself checked out *before* you try to get pregnant again. And get a second opinion while you are at it. 

    I am very sorry that this has happened to you.   

    I have a great OB and she has given me a LOT of tests over the years to find out why this keeps happening. These things we learned - I have large dermoid cysts, I have an abnormal inverted uterus that just likes to flip around of it's own accord, and I have *sigh* unexplained IF. DH's sperm is fine, my remaining tube was deemed clear via laprascopy, and I don't have any diseases. At some point I'll have to have the dermoids removed, but because they are attached to my ovaries and quite large my OB wants me to try and have kids before the inevitable surgery. Otherwise she may have to remove my ovaries and there goes my chances for having kids.

    So here's the update : the bleeding has stopped, which I find very unusual. That has never happened before when I m/c. The ER doc has me coming back in on Monday for an ultrasound and more blood work. I have no idea what is going on but I hope that somehow my baby is still in there. There was so much blood I just automatically assumed m/c but damn it I hope I am mistaken! Apparently some women just get heavy bleeds during pregnancy which may be a threatened m/c or something else. He did say it could be a kind of uterus hemorrhage and I'm supposed to be on complete pelvic rest until further notice. No sex, no heavy lifting, pushing, or pulling, and no traveling. Monday!! Can't wait to figure this out because it's driving me crazy not knowing what's going on in there! Fingers crossed that this isn't a true m/c! o.O

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    6 times? I hope you are getting yourself checked out to see if there is something that is causing all these miscarriages! Please, when you feel ready, get yourself checked out *before* you try to get pregnant again. And get a second opinion while you are at it. 

    I am very sorry that this has happened to you.   

    I have a great OB and she has given me a LOT of tests over the years to find out why this keeps happening. These things we learned - I have large dermoid cysts, I have an abnormal inverted uterus that just likes to flip around of it's own accord, and I have *sigh* unexplained IF. DH's sperm is fine, my remaining tube was deemed clear via laprascopy, and I don't have any diseases. At some point I'll have to have the dermoids removed, but because they are attached to my ovaries and quite large my OB wants me to try and have kids before the inevitable surgery. Otherwise she may have to remove my ovaries and there goes my chances for having kids.

    So here's the update : the bleeding has stopped, which I find very unusual. That has never happened before when I m/c. The ER doc has me coming back in on Monday for an ultrasound and more blood work. I have no idea what is going on but I hope that somehow my baby is still in there. There was so much blood I just automatically assumed m/c but damn it I hope I am mistaken! Apparently some women just get heavy bleeds during pregnancy which may be a threatened m/c or something else. He did say it could be a kind of uterus hemorrhage and I'm supposed to be on complete pelvic rest until further notice. No sex, no heavy lifting, pushing, or pulling, and no traveling. Monday!! Can't wait to figure this out because it's driving me crazy not knowing what's going on in there! Fingers crossed that this isn't a true m/c! o.O

    You could very well still have a peanut in there! I had very heavy bleeding with DD around the 6 week mark. Bright red blood, filled 2 pads. Turns out I had a subchorionic hemorrhage, which resolved itself and the bleeding stopped. She was born healthy at 35 weeks (early but not related to the bleeding). Everything crossed and thoughts and prayers that it's something like that in your case. I don't "know" you but it sounds like you've been through so much. I really hope that this is your sticky rainbow baby!! Keep us posted!

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  • I also had an VERY heavy bleed with my first pregnancy.  I mean I had palm sized clots coming out and bright red blood flow.  I was so sure I had m/c.  I cried for hours before waking my husband up at 5ish.  We went in to the RE first thing and I was so shocked to see a heartbeat.  RE said I had sloughed off an entire layer of the uterine lining. I hope that something similar will come to pass for you.
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  • Fingers crossed for you, hoop.
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    6 times? I hope you are getting yourself checked out to see if there is something that is causing all these miscarriages! Please, when you feel ready, get yourself checked out *before* you try to get pregnant again. And get a second opinion while you are at it. 

    I am very sorry that this has happened to you.   

    Are you shitting me!  What a pompous tone to take.  Do you really think your simple minded call for her to get herself checked *before* getting pregnant again is helpful?  Are you just assuming she's never been checked out?  She did lose one tube already and is likely under care.  What an ass you are.

    OP, I am so sorry for your losses and I hope that you are able to take some care of your feelings.  I have never been in your position but my mom was and has talked to me about it.  I was her last try.  I hope you find comfort somehow.

    Agreed.  OP, so sorry for your losses.

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  • Thank you very much for all the kind words - it's very reassuring to know that some of you have had heavy bleeding and gone on to have successful pregnancies! I woke up extremely early this morning and I'm spotting. I was last night, too. Going in to the hospital at 5:30 am to beat the crowds, so wish me luck.
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  • GL with everything. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
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