My boyfriend and I decided that we would start trying to have a baby. The only problem is we have been pregnant before and I lost her at almost 5 months. I have a weird cervix, it is to the left instead of straight in the middle. I think that it was a factor for when I lost Autumn. They told me it was because she was not growing right. I feel that when it is time it will come. But I am so nervous because I can't lose another baby, and I feel for all the couples who are experiencing the same problem as us. (Sorry for the personal info) We started last night, I am tracking ovulation and I ovulate on Monday, so I have my fingers crossed and so does he. I just need to feel like I am not a complete freak for not being able to do the main thing I was put on this earth to do.. be a mommy. Which is something I want so bad.