So, I've always struggled with my weight, I was overweight most of my life, then from ages 25-30 I lost about 70 lbs, only to gain it back between 30 and 35. And just when I rejoined WW and had lost about 10 lbs, bammo - pregnant.
I was more than happy to give up WW and focus on this pregnancy -- and at first, I even thought "hey, I'm no stranger to weight gain, this might be a bit easier for me than most, at least I'm not losing my hot body."
When I went to buy a few pieces of maternity clothes last month it was a positive experience and I found cute stuff that fit and flattered.
WELL, I have a family portrait tomorrow night with my parents, brother and SIL and kids, DH and I -- and we all have to wear dark denim on the bottom and shades of black / gray on the top. Easy enough. I have a cute pair of jeans to wear that are flattering.
But I just went to go buy a top, and felt absolutely HORRIBLE about my body in every mirror. Everything just fell apart. NOthing fit, nothing flattered, and now I'm paranoid that I"m going to look terrible in this picture, which will be memorialized for years. It would be one thing if I was super visibly pregnant, but right now I just look chunky.
I don't expect any major words of wisdom, and in the long run this doesn't matter (I have very healthy BP, heart rate, blood sugar, thyroid, I have run marathons, and I'v only gained a few lbs in this pregnancy), I'm just having a tough time today and needed to share it with somebody.
Thanks for listening.